i haven't updated much because nothing ever really happens to me..

oka well, I finished my "list" the other day of all those things that remind me of ... yea and I drew emily this little stick figure thing of the time back in 'Nam when kurt cobain got captured by the damn 'Japs. and another one of "sally and stewart" and the taking back sunday song ( Read more... )

whatever i minds will go through the day and whatever..

1st hour: i dont think anything? talked to andrea...

2nd hour: once again nothing...i feel so bad for monika's sister in law =( and michele got in trouble for talking to me.

3rd hour: me and christina got moved into the other room + donna. we had a good talk about everything. I love them ( Read more... )

not much to say. i've come to the conclusion that everything has fallen apart and i really have no right to try and fix it. why should i. if it wasn't meant to happen then its not going to happen and there's really not much you can do. but try telling you heart that.

i really need to stop listening to "mr. brightside" not only do i know all of the ( Read more... )

emo people are peopl too. ther people with hardcore fellings and that cry alot and right cool aqustic guitar songs. so next time u might call one of them pussy or a loser think about wat they might do, will use there amazing emo powers and start crying. so if u make fun of an emo Think befor u do it ( Read more... )

"I wanna hate you so bad, but i can't stop this..anymore than you can."

Today was depressing. horrible. miserable. i hate you so much.

So i woke up early, it was like 10:30 or so. I don't know what I did, watched tv and stuff, and then i wen't to the car dealership with my dad and whatever. i dont know then i got home, and michele called. so i ( Read more... )

comment anonymously..<33 ( Read more... )

it was also my violent heart that broke, falling down the front hall stairs. It was also a message i never spoke, calling, riser after riser, who cares.

^ some writer...anne sexton? i like it..

well me and ash were bored at like 3 in the morning the other day..so she was like..i always write suicide notes (NOT THAT SHES SUICIDAL ITS JUST A WAY OF ( Read more... )

poem?? im not sure ( Read more... )

i should just put this stuff in here? whatever read it...?

Don't let anyone in/ thats my motto./ dont trust/ opening up only lets the pain come in./ and i must admit/ you had me going for a little bit../ SMILE SWEETIE!/ take your hands off your ears/ tell me why were standing here/ tell me why all those nights it was all the same/ say it!/ COMMON ( Read more... )

and I remember when you said you'd never. I said it too. I said hurting you would be the last thing. The last thing i wanted to do..

no one is comming. I knew it. I knew it the whole time. funny how when you dream about something so man times. it happens. it really happens. and somewhere during the long walk home. i stoped feeling so alone. but i ( Read more... )