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my emotional weekend.
so a couple weeks ago, my dad had a minor heart attack. he was fine and was out of the hospital in a few days. but on friday night there was a tear in his heart. it was about one inch. he needed emergency surgery, which the doctors did not think he would make it out of. the odds were very bad. he would have died, if not for the scar tissue that had ( Read more... ) -
panic attacks suck.
livejournal, it's been a while. but we all know the only reason i really have an lj is so i could friend askheychris ahah. anyway, i actually have a reason to blog tonight...
today, i had a low day, and i was thinking about how i haven't had a panic attack in a while (i think the last time i had then was when the whole bob/steve shit went down [fuck it feels ( Read more... ) -
And sometimes, I'll forgive. Yeah and this time, I'll admit. That I miss you. I miss you.
previous entry: A medicine can't cure the fact that I'm still yours. Even though you've gone on without me ( Read more... ) -
I'm blogging high tonight.
unedited...
Haven't actually written anything in so long. My monthly challenges are going well (where I get it from- askheychris.livejournal.com. Educate yourself on this guy whenever you get the chance). I finished my no water challenge, and this month I'm doing no candy and sugary drinks. Anything like that. Anyway the reason that I ( Read more... ) -
i can't believe it's been a year.
so i'm actually writing on here.
mostly because bloopdiary isn't working.
but anyway...
a year ago (from the day before mother's day) was the night it all started again...
it wasn't officially dating, but it definately felt like it.
that night was awesome.
we sat in my car for two hours just talking and listening to music.
and the thing i was waiting for ( Read more... ) -
i'm actually gunna start writing in this shit.
ugh...
this is why i don't like talking to you...
fucking feelings come back again and again...
sometimes i just wish you were an asshole so it would be easier...
anyway...
got drunk on the weekend lol (silent sam is the shit by the way)
umm i'll just say im fucking stupid when im drunk lol.
big deal to me, probably not to him.
why do i keep falling for ( Read more... ) -
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soo i'm really bored right now. i'm at school. in graphic design. stoned. awsome. havn't smoked pot at school in about a week until now. haha i missed it. it makes my classes go by a hell of a lot faster and make them much more amusing. except in this one cause most of my friends are gone to new york ( Read more... ) -
when flying feels like falling.
it's scary how much i get obsorbed into movies/tv shows/books. how sometimes i think that i'm in the movie myself, and that all the characters' problems are my problems. and i always think way too much about it after it's over. for the next day at least. it's weird... -
it's about time i started writing in here.
"wrote you a goodbye note (you just ( Read more... )