i thought we were well past this. in fact a heavy metal stone of trust past this stage. if you only could hold true to your word. if you could only not soil the word honesty with your lies. then i would consider you my equal. but you are so much lower for no other reason than this. because you think you are smarter than me so you can outsmart me ( Read more... )

it started with being worried about our s life. i think it is the definition of dead! nevermind that r life really have never existed. stagnated in the same place it was a year ago. then i got to thinking that there must be something fundimentally wrong cause it's shy of a year and a month, and ur attraction to me is absolute zero. the kind of ( Read more... )

i love thanksgiving. still do always will. i dont understand how people can hate holidays. at worst you dont have any work to attend. at best you spend a few amazing days of quality time with your family ( Read more... )

sometimes i really dont get it. the letters. the texts. the presents (thoughts not objects). the constant reasurance. the fact that i've never said or done anything wrong once in the 10+ monthes. it feels really shitty to get hated on for no reason, when you are trying hard to get over shit and not hate ( Read more... )

school is going well. i feel like i'm finally getting where i wanna be... in everything. people. classes. clubs. oh so speaking of clubs ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NORA RUTH SAKS

sometimes i wonder who it is that he's in love with? or maybe it's just a security blanket for him. i wonder if it's all about the act of me loving him. and him loving the fact that i love him. and that's all. cause sometimes when he should be able to tell in my voice and my manor and my conversation that i am really upset and i need comforting ( Read more... )

you know. long distance relationships are never as simple as they appear to the uninvolved... especially when the distance is not only miles but time zones. it's so difficult. for example, jeremy called me yesterday cause it was 830 his time... but i had a 9am class and was in bed cause it was 1130 my time... and then today i got the sweetest ( Read more... )

first update in a while. so what's new ( Read more... )

i haven't written in here in a while. maybe cause nothing has caused me to think hard enough to come up with anything good enough to write in here. and also there is no turbulation in my love lif.e it's perfect. minus the miles ( Read more... )