It has been so long since I've written in this journal...too long actually. I've been really busy with college and speech, but now my emotions are at an all-time high and this is the place I've come to for solace. I have a new boyfriend (Micah) and I'm crazy about him, but sometimes I wonder what his ulterior motives are. I could just be ( Read more... )

Well, here I am. I am typing this from Gabby's house as I have spent the night here for the past two nights. I hadn't really planned on updating right now (I thought I would wait until I got home), but something happened that I really felt that I needed to write about. Since the last day that Carlos and I talked I've been waiting, somewhat ( Read more... )

Today was the straw that broke the camel's back. I called Carlos at about 10 p.m. only to find out that he was about to go have dinner at his ex-girlfriend's house. I was completely devastated, and told Gabby (who I was with) what he said. She went completely nuts, called him, and yelled until he hung up on her...a VERY bad idea indeed, because ( Read more... )

I really don't know about Carlos and myself. It seems like lately he doesn't want anything to do with me at all. He asked me once when I would let him love me, and now I find myself asking him the same question. All of the things he told me about--wanting to get married, have kids, and spend the rest of his life with me--all seems like a big lie ( Read more... )

How to make a blissfulme143
Ingredients:

3 parts pride

3 parts ambition

5 parts instinct
Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Top it off with a sprinkle of curiosity and enjoy!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

I went to the pageant last night with Janelle and Tori. Heather did great, and I was highly upset when she didn't win anything. I think that the judges were puffin' the cheeba-cheeba really hard last night. My signs were great, though, and I really hope that Heather liked them. I saw Kristi Taylor there and we decide that our combined forces in ( Read more... )

I'm in the office by myself this morning, so I thought I'd come back here update my journal as I said I would this morning. So...not a whole lot has been going on. Friday I finished getting the office supplies I'll need for college. I bought Amerie's CD "Touch" and it is GREAT. I went to KY Kingdom with Gabby and her family on Saturday, and ( Read more... )

I know it's been forever since I've written, but I've been running around like a crazy person trying to get ready for college. The pageant is tonight, and I'm really excited; Heather is gonna be da bomb, and my signs are TIGHT! Okay, I am finished speaking in ebonics. Anyhow, I'll write again later; I've got to get ready for work.

I feel even better about the whole thing between Carlos and myself now. He called me this morning at about 5 AM (he couldn't sleep) and we had a long heart-to-heart. I still love him, and I know that he still loves me too, but breaking up was the best thing for us. I'm going to go hang out with him today; I do miss him, but I know that he'll ( Read more... )

Yesterday I wrote that hopefully tomorrow would be better, and I was right. I've let Carlos go. I know that he's still going to be there for me if I need him, and I'll be there for him too, and that's okay. I feel a lot better now; I guess I just needed some time. I think that things will keep getting better from now on; I've got nothing ( Read more... )