you make me excessively sad.
and i never want to see you again.
my integritys gone to the ground.
its a little too late for something that never really was
and never will be

today was letting off fireworks.

If I could take back anything in my life that involved you, I would take back everything. I've never felt so much embarassment for my every action involving you. I'd hate to know what you think of me, but at the same time I'd die just to know exactly what you do. I don't think I can stand up straight and look you in the eye, just knowing how ive ( Read more... )

i just came back from watching an inconvenient truth, and for so many reasons it was brilliant. 
i really do suggest it to watch.

So in true style of sydney's scenster crowd, I found myself listening into an extremely high pitched conversation (as you do) outside 77. 77, which previously was one of the places to go for an amazing night out- has unfortunately turned into home for Sydneys myspace whores.

these so called myspace whores and whorettes who have no fear of the cold ( Read more... )

Sometimes I get to this place in my mind. Where everything hits rock bottom- and I really dont see anyway to get out of it. I dont know how to make everyone happy. And it hurts everyone because I dont. And thats really all I want to do. I cant I dont know where to go or what to do, and I really dont want to be me anymore.

STAS PUMPKIN POO POO BUTT OH THAT SOUNDS TERRIBLE - I LEFT YOU A SOOPER DOOPER LONG MSG IN YOUR JOURNAL WHICH YOU NEVER CHECK UNLIKE HERE SO GO LOOK LOOK AND poo. love you. miss you.

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mmm im scared ( Read more... )

i hate the stereotypes that even in a multi-cultural society like sydney, still exist. I hate the barriers between people that are automatically put up because of differences in culture, in religion, in skin. I hate the amount of effort it takes to tear those barriers down. And I hate how 80% of the time its neccessary to do so. So much hate thats ( Read more... )

miss you. lots.
but i have this crazy sense of inner conflict as well.
i cant wait to see you again.