its been 18 months with kevin and things are just coming to a hault or at least sometimes it seems like that. some days i have no idea whats going on or what im even doing here and other days im fine, i never seem to know what the day is going to bring me. the next six months of my life are going to be hard tho i just found out that my bestfriend ( Read more... )

i want to say so many things right now and i dont even know how to start it off nor do i want to really. i have nothing left inside me it feels like, i have put my all into something that is falling apart by someone else. i dont believe in the saying " it takes two to make a relationship work" because i know that it doesnt i know that for the past ( Read more... )

So i havent written in here in a while and i figured i should befor my account gets closed, not that i would really care to much what i have to say no one else cares about anyways. so yesterday was my birthday and it was ok i got what a wanted a puppy. shes 5 weeks old and shes to cute.But i also relizes that i dont have as many friends as i use to ( Read more... )

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ok so lastnight was pretty stressful... my other grandmother died at 7:35 an hour after i left her. so that sucked i dont like all these people dying its just to much. and it just puts me in these moods where i just want to be left alone i dont want anyone to come and comfort me i just want to be left alone. cause when ppl so start to make me feel ( Read more... )

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ok si o finally got the internet at my house even tho its not like it really matters cause well im never really around the computer that much and well kevins on it most of the time. and i would just like to say sorry to anyone who was at the party saterday and had to deal with kevin being cranky and kicking everyone out cause i heard he wasnt very ( Read more... )

ok so i havent had the time to really write in here and i still kinda dont have the time but i guess i could give some sort of update.... unn lets see me and kevin finally moved into our house yay! and things have been kinda stressful but we are working through it, and amber is not coming to move in with me cause shes a god damn fucking bitch. so ( Read more... )

so lastnight wasnt to bad i got to see some of the old crew i use to hang out with and thats always interesting we sat in the parking lot like always even tho everyone likes to bitch about it. and i did buy a C.A. cd and i thought it was pretty damn good. i dont know if ill be in town to see them play sunday night im hoping ill get to see a lil but ( Read more... )

i hate being sad