I don't really have anything to say, but I feel like I should write in this thing more often just to talk about my day or what not.
I saw Adam for the first time sense January ah few days ago. Tramatic. His wife is pregnant again. He owns ah mercedes .... ah nice one.He looks good, and he has money saved and seems to be doing good ... while i sat ( Read more... )

It has been so long sense I've been here, i don't even know where to begin. Once again its way early in the morning and i can't seem to get the whole "sleep at a normal time" thing down. Unstable environment could definatly be it. I am currently not working ... well kind of but I'm not paying taxes or anything and if I actually saved my money I ( Read more... )

I dont kno whats come over me ... I dont kno where this feeling is coming from! He RAPES people ... he has sex w/ WHATEVER he can get his grimy little hands on. Why do I still dream about him? Whyyyyyy???? I hate him so much ... why is this still going on? Shouldn't I be over him by now?? I mean seriously ... this is fucking ridculious! He took $ ( Read more... )

Its been ah long time ... ah long long time. I've been awake for 2 days now with one hour of sleep. I guess Adderall will do that to you huh. Its worth it .. well besides the feeling that my chest just might collapse, I'm already over it.

I find it crazy how I end up here when I'm at the lowest of my lows. I have a huge list to rack up here with ( Read more... )

Yeah so I find myself here at 3:30 something in the morning .... again. I dunno, I guess I like to write in this thing at night when I'm not gonna be bothered and I feel that my head is kinda clear of the day that just passed. Or its just that I think about that fucking dumb asshole at night, you know, that guy that "loved me so much" while he's ( Read more... )

"Date" Went Well. Was It A Date? I Think So? I Got A Dozen Roses And My Door Opened For Me And Everything Paid For ... And A Goodnight Kiss. I'm Gonna Guess It Was A Date...Sure Sounds Like One Too HuH? Well It Went Good. I Coulda Went Down To Lowell To See Him Tonight But I Guess I Was Kinda Scared And A Little Lazy About It. Lowell Is A Haul And ( Read more... )

Yeah So Here I Am. Another Day. Everything Is Okay I Guess. We'll See In Ah Week, Mad Scared About That Shit...Like Really Fuckin Scared But I Gotta Know. So Other Then That Shit Is Okay, I'm In The Process Of Looking For A Full-Time Job. Lets Hope That Shit Falls Through. Going On Ah "Date" (I Guess You Can Call It) Tonight. I'm Really Nervous. I ( Read more... )

This is the color that first stuck out, so I guess I'm just gonna go w/ that. Maybe cuz its the time of the season? Who knows. But Anyways, I've learned alot in the past few months. Everything will change. Time never stops, I knew that before obviously, but now I realllyyy know what it means when they tell you "time will never stop" Life goes by ( Read more... )

Blah..Bored, Tired, Awake...Fuckin Everything All Rolled Into One Person...Me. Just One Of Them Days...

There isnt much to say...just thought I'd pop in here to just..haha I dunno. I'm bored.