It's a Friday night and what am I doing? Sitting in my apartment watching some gross zombie movie. lol I was gonna go out for once, but I started feeling sick and then it just got worse. Just as I feel like I'm gonna throw up, I tried to distract myself so I turned on the TV and It's this crazy zombie movie where the zombies actually get a little ( Read more... )

Ok so I realize what time it is.. but I woke up and I just can't get back to sleep, so I thought writing would help. Hmm now I just need something to write about..

Um ok, I guess I'm kinda annoyed about the fact that dating someone in the Navy is hard enough and right now, even when he's not on active duty, I hardly see him. Going through months of ( Read more... )

So I think I've just about read every old LiveJournal entry and damn what a complainer and depressed little girl I was. I'm kinda shocked that people took the time to read about how I was always lonely and desperate for attention. And I guess it's a little understandable cause I didn't have the typical childhood issues, but still it just makes me ( Read more... )

So I don't know what made me think about Livejournal, but I did and I thought i deleted it but I'm kinda glad I didn't cause it was cool to look at my old entries. So I decided to get some thoughts and just things off my chest.

I'm slowly starting to pick myself up again. After tearing myself a part. And I honestly believe that it was completely my ( Read more... )

Today I found out I’m having surgery yet again *sigh* but at least I’m getting closer to being done, two more after this or so they say. I know I’m grateful for what I have but I’m just so sick of this. And I know that i hate when people complain but I’ve learned recently that if you hold all your pain, hurt and anger then you are bound to blow ( Read more... )

It was a some what chilly night in Indiana which is rare in the summer. It was also a night where 4200 people got together on a open field, held candles and listened to a very wise man talk about what everyone is going through. He said "There is so much pain, suffering, hurt, and emptiness in this world". He went on explaining how the person next ( Read more... )

Life... There are so many things to learn that it’s not possible to know everything before you die. It is unbelievably ridiculous how much people cause their selves hard ache and pain over drama but it is mostly ridiculous because of how long it takes them to realize it. Drama, it is a word that most people don't like, but drag their selves into it ( Read more... )

It's funny how people say one thing and turn around and do another. Maybe they don't realize it at first, they make a plan and just forget to follow through..does it mean it wasn't that important to begin with? When did we become so selfish? We don't even realize it most of the time and sometimes we realize it, but then we forget to care. It's ( Read more... )

"Was I ever crazy? Maybe. Or maybe life is... Crazy isn't being broken or swallowing a dark secret. It's you or me amplified. If you ever told a lie and enjoyed it. If you ever wished you could be a child forever. I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside ( Read more... )

I leave for New Orleans tomorrow and it seems so unreal. Which means I should be packing right now because we leave bright and early, but I don't want to move. I didn't pack before because my boyfriend who I haven't seen in a week came over and we just layed in my bed and it was one of the nicest things I've ever felt in a long time, his kisses ( Read more... )