Today I understand something. You are my drug and after a few days you wear off. So it is really a true circle of meaningless people. Sad as this is, it makes me feel much much better. I finally undertsand, how it works with you, and now i always know why you were always that way and always muich happier. I think I love you more now.

i hate you i hate you i hate you!. And to another you- i am meaningless. To all of you, I am meaningless. One of you loves me. ONE!Such a way is this to live. Have it every day every other all the time and then it did. what of hope, but you have never changed, NONE OF YOU EVER CHANGE!i miss you. most of all i miss loving you. Both of you. Hell all ( Read more... )

Yea so finally my bros at college. dude that was a really sucky vacation except for like the one day at the lake and yea meeting steve was pretty awesum and so was chilling with danny but the other 4 days just totally sucked. so yea i'm back and i want to kill someone i seriously don't get people who have problems with you but are to fucking pussy ( Read more... )

Yea, I'm overstressed in pain , feeling sick , and dizzy/ grogy about to pass out. So yesteray i go to my grandparents house for my brothers fare well to college dinner and yeaso we werea ll swimming n me n my bro n dany were all hanging out. So i called bobbie around liek 6 30 and hada bascily a spaz attack because their dad was being a pain in ( Read more... )

Yea I just got back from Brigatine Alantic City New Jersey it was fucking awesum .. mind the sunburn anyway. yea i took this quiz n thought it was cool

I'm confuzzled...grrr.Oh well ... me n kim are friends again and devin i have a crush on ur boyfriend... ohhh gotchya u almost believed it lol. anyway i saw charlie and the chocalot factory for the thrid time today and i finisheded shamus's letter so ike im just nervous and i dk what else about giving it to him and yea. I think its ironic that ( Read more... )

god damnit. i am such a fucking idiot btwn telling everybody we werent goingout and being a total bitch to him about the whole ... feelings thing i got emotionally attached :'( i am so fucking retarded kill me please. So anyway last nite i was joking around and i was like oh well at least you don't have to drive me home tonite. and hes like but i ( Read more... )

OKay my computer is finally un broken yea so the last month has been pretty awesum e mainly because i havent been sober for more then two days in a row. this summer freiggin rocks except for the whole everyone is convinced me n shamus are going out and were not cuase i refuse to do the boyfriend thing n i still wanna hook up with this other guy. So ( Read more... )

OMg it was fucking funny as hell i made a teacher flip out lol it was fucking hilarous tina painted on my arm like i dunno a few words i dont remember what but she did it in like the color of blood it fucking rocks n like ms. weber thought it was real bllod and liek flipped out and made me wash it off.Then she was explian how she was just worried ( Read more... )

Yea i just got hit with a really wierd jealous feeling and its not making me happy. and i dont get jealous. first off im jealous about a guy .. no names here...and yea im liek actully kinda upset cus i really dont freaking get him hes like just as antisocially bipolar and indesicive as i am ..and still i love-ish him? wtf is wrong with me what ( Read more... )