I remember how much she loved me,
and how I needlessly discarded it.
I remember seeing her heartbroken,
and feeling like the most contemptable creature on the planet.

I remember how heavy my footsteps felt as I walked
day after day, and how numb my head felt night after night.
I remember how I could only find temporary release from my self inflicted ( Read more... )

For the first time in my life I am absolutely sure of the direction I am taking in my life. I have a set goal in mind and I am positive that this is where fate has pushed me. The long string of coincidences throughout my time on this earth have put me in a position to change everything about myself; physically, mentally, emotionally, etc. Today ( Read more... )

This morning I woke up and immediately spent some serious bathroom time reading David Sedaris. After that I took a shower, shaved and went to the kitchen to make myself some breakfast. As I sat there eating another bowl of "Life Cereal" and reading the paper, I encountered a familiar smell. It was a smell I hadn't smelled in years ( Read more... )

I found myself inside a living room full of people. The walls were an off-white color with stripes of green wallpaper running from floor to ceiling. Gold trim bordered each strip, adding a sense of subdued elegance. I was leaning against a doorway as I noticed that I knew all of these people. Friends and family were all gathered, chatting ( Read more... )

In the past week I have experienced the following ( Read more... )

Because it's been in the back of my mind forever
and because it's always been my priority first and foremost.
Because I'd be an idiot if I didn't try...

I'm going to go ahead and apply to as many other graduate schools as I can.

And to hell with the consequences.

My decision.
My choice.
My life.

And that is all the validation that I need.

It seems that some things may be coming to a head.
Hopefully some issues will be settled.
If not, prepare for a lot changes and hostility in the near future.

I hope that this will be an irrelevant issue. If I am wrong, you are bound to hear about it anyway.

In all things, trust the heart.
It may falter,
it may break,
but never for the wrong reasons.

8-5-2007

The most courageous thing a person can do in this life is to love someone and tell them so.

Without chemicals.

Without fear.

Without expectation.

Bullets and blades do not compare to the risk of love.

Be courageous.

Thank you ( Read more... )