long time since i've been here.

THey put me on anti-depressants.

Im looking for a job.

Joe is gone AGAIN.

everything sucks.

so its been a long time since i wrote.

Joe is gone again.

kendle moved away.

Im smoking again and this time i probly wont quite or say that im quitting.

everyday is hte same and life sucks.

brie i miss you babe. we need to hang out and get plastic poisning again. lol

Got bakc form vacation the other day. It was fun ( Read more... )

ELLO!!!!! haha brie knows what im talkinga bout. Love ya chick ( Read more... )

Things have been boring.

Im sober and dont miss anything about the drugs.

Joe writes less.

I write less.

Going to oregan soon.

Spring break next week.

Everything is the same old same.

I didnt get to see joe this weekend ( Read more... )

So im going to go see joe this weekend. That makes me happy ( Read more... )

DAMN!!!

I am at it again.
The glass feels so good being draged across my skin.

How fucked up can i get.

Joe,

you see us in such a wonderful way. How do make everything so beautiful.

My arm is so ugly. Shreded. But it made the pain go away.

What is so wrong with me??

I love you.

I saw my mother today, and i talked to her a little bit.
I thought she would be diffrent, but shes jsut the same.
I forgive her, i will always remember the things she has done, but i just cant hate her forever.
Im forging her for me. WHen i hated her i was so angry and it just would never go away.
So she is who she is i and who i am.

ANd i am in

Got my car fixed nad back today ( Read more... )