All right, so tomorrow is my anniversary and I am not as excited as I should be. Why? Who knows, it is even a question to myself. I should be jumping up and down and no one be able to control me...yet I am not really looking forward to tomorrow. Eh, whatever, maybe in the morning I will be more excited ( Read more... )

my nine months is tomorrow. i garantee nothing special is going to happen...oh well. i met tony's friend jana for the first time today. i like her a lot. she is really awesome. i am so freaking hungry, but there is absolutely nothing in this damn house to eat. i went to wawa, and tony got himself three drinks, and looked at me like i was ( Read more... )

I don't know why I care or if I just don't care? Do I care too much, or not enough, really? I kind of want to know if he even really gives a damn anymore. It is practically Tony this, Tony that. Or My car this, my car that. He changed my life around like fifty freaking times. We were thinking of moving to California, then Colorado, then I ( Read more... )

I don't know why, sometimes, but I think I am so fucking...who knows. I really just want to hate my life so freaking much, but I don't know what is really keeping me from it. I know that I would be in and out of this relationship if I knew completely that Tony would constantly come back. But I know he would never come back if we broke up because ( Read more... )

I love working at Wawa. It is so freaking awesome. I am afraid to work with some new people though. I like working with Sam, Bess, Pat and Vicki. Too bad Melissa is leaving. I am taking over her job. She brings life, so does Sam, and I am probably going to end up taking over Melissa's area of expertese too. My only issue is working from ( Read more... )

I bought a fishy today and my friend Sam helped me name him Jungle Fever. He is so cute, and he looks like a leopard, which is part of the reason why we named him that. We went to Walmart with James, Tara, Ashley, me and Sam. It was nuts. I was running around like a dork and I took a picture of James sitting on a bouncy ball. When he first ( Read more... )

I called Tony this morning, and his dad answered and I asked if Tony was there, and he said he was asleep, and I asked if he could wake him up for me, and he said "okay," and then hung up on me. How lovely. Am I wasting my time with him? Or is he wasting his on me? I am so confused, I just want to lay down in a corner all balled up and die. I ( Read more... )

Can I kiss you ( Read more... )

NINE PLACES I'VE VISITED ( Read more... )

It is fucking amazing how I can go from "la de da" happy to super fucking bitch where my boyfriend wants to ring my neck. I am sick of everything right now, and earlier I was fucking amazingly happy. I don't get it, I never will. I hate this fucking feeling. I care so much about moving to Deleware and going to college and living with Tony for ( Read more... )