bummed. sad. depressed. despair. heartache. numb. pissed. melancholy. blackness. dark. pain. lonely. alone. frightened. hurt. crazed. nothing. jealous. irritated. angry. blood. death. betrayed.

Oh god, don't tell me that I'm becoming one of those girls. I'm not a jealous person...am I? I'm so confused and there's no reason to feel the way I feel. I'm just a ball full of craziness. Obsession is so a part of my life and that's so not cool. I kno that I'm very...protective about shit in my life but goddamnit! Fuck this shit!!

Just when I start feeling good about myself and just all-around, stupid shit has to get me all off-track. I can feel the stress just sitting on my chest and it's about that time when I'm starting to feel those icky emotions that make me want to lose all sense of reason. I seriously need to get out of this place for a while, maybe even for a day ( Read more... )

there is not enough alcohol in the world to drown my sorrows...trust me, i've tried. too bad i have zero access to some pills cuz i could really use some of that shit right about now! damn.

I hate to be a liar and fake that everything's all right. Mom got home from work and asked if I was okay. I told her that I was fine and after she left the room I bawled my eyes out. It took me a while to finally come myself down. I had to lock myself in the bathroom and splash water on my face before I became numb. I don't even kno why I'm ( Read more... )

OMFG!!! What the hell did I just do? Must have had a short relapse cuz I think it was a bad move on my part to actually write a message to Steve. Shit! What was I thinking?! I went all emo on myself for a moment while listening to HIM and fuckin wrote him. Nothing incriminating but still...I wrote to his ass. I totally set myself up for shit ( Read more... )

Nothing turns me off more than when a guy begs for sex. Pathetic. Especially when a guy already is in a 2 yr relationship! Why am I always the other girl?! Well, I'm not going to be this time! A one time thing? Is he fuckin for real?! God, I have a headache!!!!! And...end scene. Great, just b/c I keep telling him no, he won't even talk to ( Read more... )

DAMNIT!! I totally kno what it's like to have zero sleep. I love how people tend to text me at 3:10 in the A.M. thinking that I'm awake and want to carry on a conversation...Matt. It took me a lil over a hour to finally get back to sleep and what happens?! Dave decides to text me at 4:30A.M. to tell me that there's a show on tv named after me ( Read more... )

FUCKING PISSED OFF, does NOT begin to describe how I'm feeling right now! I just found...let's say an old "buddy's" myspace page. I wasn't even looking for his ass at all, looking up him was the furthest thing from my mind just then. Curiousity spiked and I was thinking...damn, he looks familiar and clicked on his profile and low and behold it ( Read more... )

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