well its been a while since last entry. lots to say , but i probably wont get into too much detail. lets see. i got a job at Dairy Queen. two weeks later, i quit my job at Dairy Queen. Alex and I broke up. apparently I "left" him, which isnt quite true. a day or so later, i regretted "leaving" him, so we talked and i asked him to give me ( Read more... )

wow. it has been a long time since the last time. well lets see... April 2nd sucked balls... not because of the events that occured on that day, but... the date in general is never any good. long story behind that i suppose. i dont care anymore. fuck April 2nd, lol. anyway. hmmm. theres a lot to say, i just dont know if i want to write it ( Read more... )

gah. it keeps getting worse. crazyness. my weekend sucked so bad! first of all, i got lost after dropping Alex off at Diversions, and to make matters worse, my car broke down... in the middle of hella nowhere.! it sucked! i was stranded on the dirty -NorthEast- side of town. geeh- scary. so i was there for like an hour and a half until i ( Read more... )

omfg! i miss you guys! eek! im still grounded.. its been..what.. like a month?? ya saturday is my last day of hell. lol. and then im FREE. so things that are new ( Read more... )

i have found the nerdiest kid... EVER!!  and no, it's NOT Alex--dont worry.  youre so no longer my "nerd" definition.  sorry.  (and ur not a nerd really- i just say that cuz u get all worked up- and its ADORABLE!)  anyway... my new nerd is....  ::drum roll::

*Jarrett*

lilmissvixen420: ya ur such a nerd jarrett, ur the epiphany of all nerds

ack i need to talk to alex! i guess i need to hear- that he doesnt want to be with me -from him. i dont want to believe that he feels that way. i dont know what he wants from me. i mean, i want him- i like him thaat much. i dont see how im such a downer. probly b/c im not into the whole dance dance hysteria. thats stupid. or maybe b/c i ( Read more... )

well i didnt think that those last posts would be read by Alex anytime soon. but it looks like he has read him. i dont know if thats a good thing for him to know what im thinking exactly- i probly sound like a demanding bitch. well shyt. i feel horrible- not only b/c i made him feel like shyt, but also b/c i fucked up my only chance to be with ( Read more... )

damnit i just wrote like a lot- and then i pushed a button on this keyboard- and it erased completely. that pisses me off even more. okay so now i dont remeber exactly how i worded this but shit. i talked to alex today. he went to diversions at 2 with rick and emily. he said he would only be an hour and then we could hang. he called me at 4 ( Read more... )

so last nite was pretty fun. Jackie picked me up at 8 and we went to Fiesta 16. We saw 50 First Dates (second time for me) it was again, good. Jackie's aunt paid for me! damn- shes rich!!! i LOVE Jackie!! shes awesome. after the movie- we saw Amanda N. with her family- and Jackie flipped out- so i called at Amanda- and she turned, waved, ( Read more... )

i feel like shit. some people reeaally make me feel like crap, even if they dont mean to. gah. i just feel like crying soo bad right now. i cried last nite, when i got home, i dont even know why- but apparently it put me to sleep. ugh. i need to take a shower. my feelings for you seem to be too much for you to handle. that sucks. why cant ( Read more... )