hey whats up i havent done this shit in a whiile. well to update you- reeaally fast- i moved out into my own apartment!!!! and i just got fired from my job too, so im broke as fuck! it sucks but its cool. so if anyone knows of any jobs let me know. anyway- i got a home phone.

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call it!!

so my birthday is tomorrow. ill be the BIG 17! hooray. not much will change tho. im still car-less. and i still cant get cigs or anything. and im still partially a minor. this sucks. my birthday is going to blow. i get to go to school... and then maybe my boyfriend will spend some time with me. but not too long- cuz his friend's birthday ( Read more... )

guess what! my birthday is in... 3 days! hooray! June 25th- i'll finally be 17! im so excited! too fucking bad i dont have a damn car- or else things would be perfect. but besides that things will be awesome. i have the best boyfriend ever! whom i get to spend the entire day with! itll be fun! i miss my lori. i havent seen or talked to ( Read more... )

To feel alive again, and wait for
Real love
Or is it me you're after
Is it time?
Because it's now or never
Real love
Real love forever
Real love is nameless
So tired and hopeless
Real love is painless
Nobody mentions                   ~Smashing Pumpkins

Give me tears
Give me love
Let me rest
Devotionless
You're all a part of me now
Will our love ever be ( Read more... )

"now you're on the ground
selfless days are way too many
lay back, spread your legs, and don't make a sound
hiding bruises he brings you roses
says "i'm sorry" now it's okay
no hard feelings, no deep meanings
you were once special but just for a day
he hook and baits you to break you in two now
no one is saying that it'll be all right
promises when ( Read more... )

i fucking hate my life. my mom is such a fucking bitch. i have no fucking life thanks to her. i cant even fucking see my boyfriend- hardly ever. there goes that. i want to move so badly. i want to go with him to california. i wish to god i could. maybe i will. if he wants me to. my throat hurts. and i cant stop crying. things are fucked ( Read more... )

omg! so yesterday was one of the greatest days ive had in a long while. good news: i have a boyfriend! oh and i like him so incredibly much! hes perfect. his name is Bruce- how cute! i met him in my summer school class. he went to Marshall. hes graduating with me in August. hes turning 18 on July 1st. he's absolutely gorgeous!! he has ( Read more... )

where are all of the nice, good looking, single guys at? i seriously need to get out and date!!- (to heal my broken heart- or something like that) i am overly single right now- and definately looking for someone. i do have a crush on this one guy- but who knows if thats going to go anywhere. hopefully it will. ::fingers crossed:: either way ( Read more... )

i hate my life. it sucks. this one week has fucked up my entire life. and now i have nothing. nothing to live for. yet i keep living. i dont even know why. maybe because i have hopes that things will get good again. maybe he'll call me. i doubt it though. this is so depressing. first - i lose the love of my life and im told to never call ( Read more... )

Karma's a bitch.  You'll get yours in the end.

Friend-\frend'\n. 1: one attached to another by respect or affection 2: acquaintance 3: one who is not hostile 4: one who supports or favors something

some people just don't understand the meaning of friendship.  but i am glad that i have realized who is a true bitch before it was too late.  you fucked ( Read more... )