my mom found out about those pills
what the fuck

we moved into our new house yesterday, its pretty nice and big. Tomorrow is my year anniversary of being clean a year from heroin. wow that shit went fast. me lou and marcie are going out to celebrate.

went to ny this weekend for my grandma's 80th surprise party
here are some old pics


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i went to my drug therapist and she said told me i should go to an impatiant residential drug facility for 3 months. but if my family found out i am relapsing id probably be shot. not to mention they are nuts and would rather see me not going and get the help i need. anyway, id suck to have to finish school all the way over in orlando. write more ( Read more... )

i woke up this morning and decided i'd be a good idea to steal my moms vicodins and down them with wine. but that deffinatly was a bad idea and now im kicking myself in the ass ( Read more... )

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these meds make me get my period for 1 day and its pretty fucking horribe when that day comes. today i got my period and i had to take the SAT's and i fucked up so bad on coloring in the answers, yeah.. so the fucking bitch told me i couldnt fix them because my time was up and i blew up and almost ripped her head of her body in front of 35 ( Read more... )

my mom and lorr appologized and started talking after 7 years.. im happy about that... i think it affected me more than i realized. i didnt understand how someone could hate their family like that... anywayyyy i took today off i think im very close to having a nervous breakdown.

peace.

talk about a shitty afternoon man.....i blew the fuck up at frank in the car about shit that should NOT have gone down.
klj;sdagh! i hate fighting like you dont know and i still end up getting pissed regardless.

other than that i made second honor roll!!!! oh man this is nutsss

lou almost died last night in a drunk driving accident who knows if he was drinking but some drunk fuck was driving on the wrong side of the road and lou swirved at the last minute and killed 2 kids in the car behind him and left the parents in critical condition... i dont know how i would handle it if he died on me... id probably kill myself all