whoaa... flashback to childhood
i forgot how much my mom always fighting really affected me.
my mom had one of her outburst again. she didnt have one of those since i was like 10.
its scary when ur little. i never knew what was gunna happen. i always thought she was gunna pull outta gun and kill someone...

i hate this feeling
why am i always stuck in slow mo

two theripist in two days told me i am bipolar. and im not. i dont need to be misdiagnosed anymore. its scary how easily theripist diagnose people with such little information then put them on a shitload of meds. i think they feed off of diagnosing people... maybe to keep them comming back for 'therepy' reasons to make some loot ( Read more... )

both of my brothers are moving down here 2-3 weeks.. lou should help me stay clean while fred doesnt know i become clean. they both used to do drugs and drink alot with me... but yea, i can't tell fred i was addicted because thats just how the rules go in this family ( Read more... )

school closed... hurricane day!

today was a bitch. i gotten so fat my uniform didnt fit. every teacher came up to me today and told me to tuck my shirt in... asjfajh!
...i lost another 1.5lbs ...7 to go :)
frank is begging me not to drop out, all of his kiddies dropped out cause of drugs, and he's scared cause i told him i hate school...

we had a baby shower for one of the girls at the homeless shelter last night... it was fun...
tomorrow is school.. im scared.
too many drugs there. i did so well over the summer.

i met my step-brother a few days ago... he and his family came down from ny and are staying at our house for about a week. he's really nice...he's a recovering addict too but he doesnt know about me.. his wife is a pregnant maniac and she really needs to leave my house.
i lost 5 pounds on vacation :)

WHY is everyone oding on me?

today at the homeless shelter a girl oded in her room. the emts came and took her away. it was really sad, she was doing so well :(