Ive been having so much fun for the last prolly 2 months but inside i still feel so worthless. so unwanted everywhere i go so like so unwelcome. i dont even know who i am becoming these days. i would rather be who people want me to be than me because i know i am no good. im not fun. im nothing. funny enough the only reason ive ever done anything ( Read more... )

We went back to the skate park where i basically learned everything i know now. it was fun to go back. with alot of things i would like to go back aswell. lik wiht ashley she actually seemed to like me like a month ago. i know she isisnt lovey dovey everyone knows that is me but im kool with that. i can take even the way she is with everyone. but i ( Read more... )

man i accidently saw anewer pic of jenn. she is so georgeous. i still love her to death. he oh well not like i could do shit about it then or now. yeah well im off on march break inone more day court is coming down. im so figgin excited. im gonna take him to liek all the best skate parks. hopefully we can even make it out to a few of the newer ( Read more... )

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goddam im feeling quite stressed about alot of things. one feeling that wont go away is me still wishing i would of killed myself. im happy well contempt anyways but i sort of feel on the inside that im wasting my time and im like a waste of life. i feel like if i had done it maybe things would be better. i want to feel good i wish i could, but its ( Read more... )

Well im sort of torn between a decision i need to make. ive been thinking about it for a few days now i dont know what the right decision is to make. i know what i want to do but i dont know if its the right thing. other than this everyhting is still going pretty fucking awesome. work is awesome i really like working there. i get pretty good money ( Read more... )

i just went and say ashley i havent seen or talked ot her since the party so i figured i would go see her. she is sick. it sucks we have a few days off and we cant hang but its ok i just want her to get better. she definetly made my day though. she smiled and it made me feel all happy inside. i like her so much and her parents still dont know and ( Read more... )

well last night i went to ashleys 18th birthday party not my gf but hr good friend. it was hella fun and i met this dude named chris. he got kinda wasted lol. he puked and i kind of felt bad for him though. so i cleaned it up and like i didnt exactly feel comfortable driving drunk. i wasnt wasted nothing compared to how much i drank at new years. ( Read more... )

man wanted to do one of these since the concert. IT was so fucking amazing. First up was Scars of Tomorrow, they were fucking sick Then Norma Jean they were pretty good then i went up front with Albert and we were front, then UNEARTH They were so fucking awesome LIE!!!!1 But the best show was saved for last. Atreyu was fuckign amazing. they ( Read more... )