Somehow as the day went by, I knew he was going to stand me up. When I got off work at 1:30 I walked to the bank and cashed my check, alone. Went into a Wendy's and ate half of a double cheeseburger and some fries, alone. Got the bus home, walked home alone. During this whole day, not a single soul called or texted me to hang out, see how I'm doing ( Read more... )

Finally went back and read all my old entries 10 years and back. Wow ( Read more... )

I have been feeling so sorry for myself lately, my whole DUI situation, forever psychologically addicted to crack, cant get my license back, cant get a good job, fucked myself for life with my unhideable tattoos and whatnot. Hate my dad. Etc. But then, I'm scrolling facebook. and one of my old friends, Alle pops up. And the minute I saw what she ( Read more... )

I need to start using this more often, at least as a food diary. Today I'm hungover as fuck but just forced down a 100cal english muffin and egg whites so that my stomach won't be hurting and grumbling when I go on this job interview later ( Read more... )

I miss my best friend so much that it's killing me inside and out. I cant live with James and I cant live without him. I convinced him to get back together with me while he was in jail last time - for what I put him in there for. I stressed to him how bad I need him, that no other guy ever compares to him, and I'll do whatever it takes to keep him ( Read more... )

I am stuck in this horrible nightmare that I can't believe I created on my own. I'm not addicted to xanax anymore, I take it every now and then to have a real good sleep but - pro - I do not take it every day and so I would say I am not addicted to it anymore. However when I do take it it takes at least 3 or 4 FULL 2G XANAX BARS for me to feel them ( Read more... )

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My Best Friend is casper666Our 26 common interests are: anime, boys in makeup, cigarettes, cradle of filth, crossbreed, disturbed, fear factory, fire, godsmack, hatebreed, korn, metallica, mindless self indulgence, murderdolls, music, nine inch nails, nirvana, pantera, porn, rage against the machine, sex, slayer, slipknot, system of a down, tool, type o ( Read more... )