the watery light that mirrors in your desirable eyes
the way you move your lips
while talking to somebody else
i move a little closer
just to hear what you say you speak of loneliness
but here's a soul adoring you
it's a wounded heart it breaks in two
and in it's pain it sings for you
it's a wounded heart
that feels afraid moves closer
still fulfills its ( Read more... )

So, we met with Olivia on Wednesday, which was 2 days ago.  We discussed the chores and friends staying with us.  Jordan is gone this weekend.  Things are already starting to look up a little bit.  Still a ways to go but it's a start.  We are getting a chart and starting to mark off things when they get done and we will be splitting the ( Read more... )

So is it wrong that I feel I have nothing to say? Is it wrong that I feel I lost a connection I had with my friend after I was lied to?  Is it wrong that I can't find the words to tell her how hurt I am that she lied to me.  She was suppose to be the one friend that is honest with me and not hurt me?  Why is it that I still try and trust people.  ( Read more... )

So, I got up at 6 this morning.  Not really feeling much so far this morning.   Upset but what else is new.  I don't feel I can share my emotions with anyone.  It will just give them something to use against me in the future or scare them off.  I've had plenty of people walk away from me so I would rather keep my feelings to myself.  Besides, I'm ( Read more... )

 

In the end, will anything matter?
In the end, will you even still care?
In the end, who will be there to hold you?
In the end, will you even be there?

What is the point of caring?
What is the point of even helping another?
What is the point of trying to make things work?
What is the point of being someone your not?

Why do you act like you are my friend ( Read more... )

Posted on my other blog 6 years ago... Still feel the same

You know the feeling you get when you hold an angel? The warmth inside and completeness of your heart? That is how I feel when I hold her. The way she smiles and kisses me. Hugs and holds me. When she is gone all I do is think of her and nothing else matters. Where would I be without her.... ( Read more... )

I lost myself in shapeless oceans
Whose depths concealed more than they showed
Beliefs obscured by mists around them
A legacy they'd been bestowed
Columns of ice paint awkward pictures
Distorted forms that once seemed real
Engulfed inside transparent textures
Billowing curtains as hard as steel
For all the noise filling the landscape
Whispers & cries ( Read more... )

Even though I know it's only chemical,
these peaks and valleys are beginning to take their toll.
Tryin' to convince myself that all it takes is time,
but the most derisive voice I hear is mine.

It opens all the scars on me.
It leaves me shaken in my belief.
It takes my hand just to drag me down.
It makes a stranger in the crowd.

Give me isolation just ( Read more... )

I cant begin to tell you how some people still amaze me.  They haven't changed since I first met them.  I have been through a lot of changes and for the better thanks to my husband and kids.  I miss some things but at the same time I wish I could cut the throats of some people.  I hate them and everything thy are.  I miss some people and feel ( Read more... )