alright so. theres this girl in new york that my boyfriend knows. and i think she likes him, and he used to have a crush on her. so these past two weeks hes been in new york, hanging out with her and all of his friends. as soon as he got back (friday) i asked him if he touched her or if she hit on him or anything and he said no. and of course i ( Read more... )

i got to see jimmy again tonight! it was soo exciting. he held my hand and kept laying on me in the car. it was soo cute. i almost cried from happiness. yeah so i didnt go to school today cause i didnt do any homework and i didnt study for a test. so i wanted to catch up on everything but my parents told me my life is fucked up. im fucking ( Read more... )

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i talked to jim today, he got back from vermont.. he was being an ass at first but i didnt give up. then he asked me to hang out. so i did what ever it took to be able to see him. we hung out and i felt like i was making him uncomfortable by trying to hold his hand and just the unreplacable sensation of just touching his skin against mine. some ( Read more... )

wellll i dont think im goin anywhere with this whole jim thing. i think its gonna take me forever. i dont understand. ive never liked a boy this much... ive been trying so hard not to think about him. everything reminds me of him.. i cant even do my fucking school work. im failing so bad right now. even my parents noticed ive gone to shit. i just ( Read more... )

today is thanksgivingg. i ate sooo much. i did some homework yayy. im proud of myself. i think its time i start concentrating on school and things important in my life, rather then relationships. they just fuck you over anyways. why set yourself up to get hurt? its pointless.. im doing good with the whole jim thinggg. so far.. ehh. i hope its not ( Read more... )

its been about a week since jim and i broke up. its still pretty hurtful for me, and im still pushing myself even harder to get the strength to get over him. im not doing so well in school, i wanna try but i just cant. it seems like im just losing control of alot of things in mylife. i feel a little better about this whole thing.. i feel like im ( Read more... )

so alot has happened since ive last written an entry.. i found a wonderful boy named jim. we dated for 2 months and then he broke up with me.. it hurt really bad and its so hard for me to let go. i liked him so much and i didnt expect this to happen so soon. i miss him alot and i wish i could get him back. or atleast be able to get over him sooner ( Read more... )

this weekend was really fun. on friday i went to a party and it was soo much fun. and then saturday i went to a show with devan jackie and moses. it was good i saw a lot of people that i knew there. and then after that we went to my friend nicks house and we watched tv and stuff. ive been really sick all day today it sucked

so last night me and kate went to the shallowpoint show. which was AWESOME!!! it had to be the best show ive ever been to! =] and then afterwards me nick kate and scott all went to denys. and today was my last day of counceling yayyyy!!! im soo happy =]