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We have our second consult at the Fertility Clinic on the 26th. Officially start treatment in the August cycle. Seven months of TTC naturally and nothing. I'm pretty sure that it goes without saying that my chances of ever concieving naturally or, as I like to call it, the cheerleader way... are never going to happen. As much I want it.

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I'll never learn... and maybe i'm not suppose to. I spent the better part of the last two weeks symptom spotting and driving myself semi crazy (i've been farther down the TTC rabbit hole). Definitely thought I had a good chance of being pregnant.... then the spotting started....

I just wanted it to be this month for so many reasons. Not having to ( Read more... )

Well, i'm officially starting all the prerequisites for fertility treatment. My periods were normal these last two months, which is pretty amazing. :) One was CD 29 and the other was CD 31. :)

I keep thinking that i'm going to get pregnant in August, which would mean a May baby. Which means i'll have a tiny newborn when I move to GA. Official ( Read more... )

Last night, I was listening to a song that has always made me cry, but last night I lost it. I just couldn't stop crying. It was a country song, by Lonestar and with it came a handful of actual military families coping with deployments, incorporated into the song.

Sometimes, I feel bad because... i'm suppose to be strong, and suppose to show Michael ( Read more... )

Sometimes, I wonder if I make a bigger deal about things then others. I can't shake this awful  anger and resentment i'm feeling towards my mother right now. They came into town Friday, didn't see us until 4 when we were having portraits done, and then only stayed to see the pictures and were off. They went to go have dinner with themselves. Didn't ( Read more... )

I've been thinking about more of my GA trip today. On the way to Costco with my grandma. A song came on, and even though the majority of it was rap and I wasn't really into the rap parts the chorus was beautiful female vocals. The lyrics were:

I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
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I can tell when I have a lot on my mind because I feel like my brain starts going into overdrive about the details ( Read more... )