Maybe things happen for a reason. Can I see whats unfolding in front of me? Every person has their own set of perfections and imperfections. What can I accept in a relationship? Who needs to change? Does anyone? If neither changes, we will continue our three year stand still. If I change, I will over come my emotional barriers against alcohol, but ( Read more... )

 I hope you find this, and read all the things I could never tell you. Each one of you. 
Andrew, I loved you. I thought I was going to be with you forever. I have more memories of you than I can admit to myself. Somehow, you've changed into someone I don't recognize anymore. Perhaps all of our psychology classes have failed me, and my hippocampus ( Read more... )

 OK Russia. It was a long two weeks. In the end, I think you helped me  grow up a little. He called me anyway when he came home. Like I knew he would before I had time to dig myself into a trench of worries. He's still cute enough to say Hi, it's Alex. Oh honey, I know your voice like I know my own.  With enough time to spin myself into a web of ( Read more... )

 I feel so disconnected from you. You are making the effort to talk to you friends on facebook... but you arn't Emailing me or posting on my wall. Maybe its all coincidental. But I feel shut out, blocked out and forgotten over here.  Do you remember me? I slept in your bed. Why arnt you making the same effort to talk to me? Why arnt you making more ( Read more... )

 You're taking Sasha away. It's "only" for two weeks. But... what a long two weeks ( Read more... )

 I think summer must be that time when things shift to my part of the ball park. Reading my old post last summer, I was in heaven. This summer, I am starting that all over again. I have a working car, potential jobs, and a wonderful man who tells me he misses me after a day apart. Life is a roller coaster, and it seems summer is the best part of ( Read more... )

 I loooooooooove to ride bicycles! Especially MY bike! (Especially because my boyfriend fixed it just for me, for my birthday ( Read more... )

 He Loves Me.

 Sometimes, when Lifetime or TLC is on, I end up zoning out and thinking about more important things.  Its like a spiral of  different thoughts, interweaving into one giant concept. Usually, its too complicated to understand everything, but at least I have a good distraction to sink into.  

sometimes when you think you don't know whats up or down, something taps you on the shoulder and lets you know where to look.  Maybe that cute guy that you've been staring at all long ( Read more... )