So out of nowhere I decided to get on this thing. Its amazing how I look at all my old post and I look at my life now, how much things have changed and how somethings haven't. I still feel like the same loner I was years ago, but a more mature one. I've grown up in so many ways its hard to believe. well I doubt anyone will ever read this, but I ( Read more... )

Razor blades and a lost love

gus finally had it with me, he call be up and said he thought we should break up, then changed his mind. At that point i really didn't care, i just said i did for him, because thats what he wanted to hear. I don't want to hurt gus, but i don't really care for the lovey dovey relationship were you always have to say i love you. i don't want to ( Read more... )

I can't walk. this really sucks. i have a huge whole in my foot and when i walk i starts to bleed and puts me in a lot of pain. i'm screwed because i walk home, i should have taken drivers ed sooner. WATASHI WA BAKA DESU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gus sees me as this prefect girl, who is kind and caring, but i'm not. in reality i'm a selfish girl, who doesn't want anyone to just too close. i know gus is very close to me, but at the same time i am slowly pushing him away so i won't get hurt. him being so far away and always saying i'm wonderful hurts me. if he really knew the truth he would ( Read more... )

Getting ready for College is killing, i'm just too lazy to be stressed out by all this.

I finally got my own computer and can now download music!!!! My grandmother made me wait 3hrs in line for it and a fight almost broke out between a black lady and a guy in a yellow jacket. It was so funny watching stupid people fight over a stupid computer ( Read more... )

I'M FINALLY DONE CHRISTMAS SHOPPING! THANK GOD!

oh, and my mom had her baby thursday. Lydia Sage Robinson

I have been painting a lot lately, trying to clear my head from everything. A lot of things are going on with school, past people, and my boyfriend. If don't know yet I haven't appled for any colleges, let alone look at ways to pay for it. People from my past keep popping up at the worst times. Last but not least me and gus are still dating even ( Read more... )

I'm going to western for a competition. KEVIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU BETTER BE THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!