My suspicion is that beauty is mean. This suggests some degree of objectivity and sentience. She's kind to those she chooses, but she's only interested in them for a little while. I think she's only comfortable in nature, because it's the only place I've ever seen her stay. I respect that.
If in the end, there is nothing after this, nothing more, and it is only the time we have here, I think that's okay. I'm just happy to get to travel here.
I'm making my first soup from scratch and waiting for it to be ready! I'm so excited, it smells yummy. :) bay leaves all up in this. I wish I knew it was gonna take so long!