Another bad night

[blu_crying_wolf]

I had another bad night last night. I was up until 6 am. I cried until 4 am. Ben tried his best to calm me down, but it didn't work. I don't know what else to do about all of this. I mean, Ben and I haven't been clicking in the past few weeks. We've been picking at each other, and bickering a lot. I know that it's probably me and him having to deal

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[technomage]

F'na. That sounds serious. Was there a trigger, or is this a random act of Ashley-on-Ashley violence?

[blu_crying_wolf]

Ben and I have just been fighting a lot recently. We've always fought during our relationship, but it's getting to be an everday thing. Just gets very frusturating and upsetting when it happens everyday like that. I'm going to say that I'm more touchy because I don't have my meds and I haven't had them for a long time. When I start crying, it takes me a long time to stop, I hyperventilate (bad spelling, I know) and I usually shake. Thanks for asking.... :)

[technomage]

Hyperventilation causes you to absorb too much oxygen, which drives up metabolic rates and generally makes you more aware and alert. If you're in a panic or anxious state being more aware is often a BAD thing.

Have you ever tried the paperbag trick? You breathe into and out of a paper bag held loosely in front of your mouth. (no duct tape, okay?) The idea is to limit your oxygen intake by rebreathing your own exhaust gasses (mostly CO2). It often helps people with reflexive breathing (where you just can't stop gasping for air) to get calmed back down. You might try it.

What's up with those meds?

[blu_crying_wolf]

Thanks for the suggestions... I think I might have to try that. I've seen the paperbag trick, but I just haven't had a paper bag handly. It's not like the give them out anymore... lol.

I haven't gotten any meds yet. I can't get in to see the doc until July 11th because of the holiday coming up (ughh) so until then, I'm on my own.