i'm feeling a lot better today, after some thought, or maybe just after waiting for the anxiety to shift ( Read more... )

wow, so cold ( Read more... )

ok. i really need to make some decisions ( Read more... )

ya know, i'm getting pretty sick of feeling shitty all the time... i find myself reading happy posts and getting pissed off, simply because they're happy and i'm not. and the really crap thing is that i could be just as happy as they are if i just let myself. so i think my point is, i'm going to try harder to be a happy person. not one of those ( Read more... )

i was saddened to open my journal this morning to find that my boyfriend of two years does not trust in my literary ability. instead of appreciating my extensive account of yesterday's activities, he chose to believe that i was making use of a thesaurus. i am insulted. i cannot help but harbour contempt, suspecting that he covets my prodigious ( Read more... )

hi everyone! i thought you might like to read a whole lot of completely inconsequential crap today, so i'm posting this ( Read more... )

just want to say a huge thankyou and sorry to all the people i've been so difficult with lately. i know i can be trying at the best of times, and recently i've been particularly whiny. so sorry for expecting so much from everyone and ignoring other people's needs just cause i've got a few probs. and thankyou to everyone who's offered support -- you ( Read more... )

i think i must be sick or something, cause i am so ridiculously tired and have a headache all the time... not to mention having no temperature regulation so one minute i'm burning to death and the next i can't get warm even if i wear like 50 jumpers. also, i'm hideously depressed ( Read more... )

feel like i should have something to post about... i had my recital last night and it was great to have people there (thankyou everyone who came, it really made it worthwhile having you there) but at the same time the music did nothing for me. i didn't feel like it was a good performance. i know you're probably thinking "it' sounded fine to me..." ( Read more... )

i am deeply frustrated, because i feel as though i have lost some important friendships, but i also know it's just as much my fault as anyone elses. like with sarah. when i do talk to her, i know we both still care about each other, but i just don't do anything with her and we have nothing much to talk about. i start feeling rejected and then ( Read more... )