well looks like tomorrows gonna be my last day smokin weed, my "grandpa" dan is going to drug test me. see, for the past few days, dans brother in law Jay who is a very nice guy was helpin me get a job. jays a captain for american airlines and when he flies into san jose or SF he stays with us. dan asked him to help me get clothes for job hnting ( Read more... )

i hate my life, i want to die someone kill me please put a bullet in my head decapitate me i dont give a fuck just do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i would really like to fall asleep and not wake up right now, and this song would be perfect to do it to haha i cant find a job, no ones hiring, im officialy fed up with living here, im very seriously ( Read more... )

now i have 4 days to get a job or all my stuff gets moved out of my room and into my grandfathers office. isnt that fuckin great??!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!? ive told my mom, if i cant find a job in 4 days, she can have my stuff and im leavin, dont know where i'll go but i dont care either, im so fuckin outta here, just before i got on here, i contemplated ( Read more... )

i just had a pretty fuckin insane night. went to fremont with josh for his and his cousins birthday party. it was a small rave, i was the ONLY person there not drunk off thier ass. there were people fucking in the corner and techno, other than that its all too much to explain here. and yeah, looks like im gonna be single for a while longer, pfft ( Read more... )

ive been asked to wait for someone to change thier entire life before i can be with them. of course no one knows how long it'll take. i have been alone a long time and this just makes me think that im gonna be alone even longer. also, im havin to change at the same time they r, and that makes me think me and her might not ever get together, shits ( Read more... )

ah.....that sucks for me dont it? well, shoulda seen this comin, like a train at the end of a tunnel and ur tied to the tracks, this type of shit always happens, i swear, it nvr fails.......dont feel bad ur nnot the first one to do this and im sure u wont b the last.

i love how no one comments anymore, im sorry i nvr comment but its cuz no one ever comments on mine. come on people lets get back in touch COMMENT!

why is it that when i get involvoed at all with a girl, she has to start havin life problems? and that gets in the way between us, i mean its happened like 3 times, i dont get it, maybe its me, thats the only thing i cna come up with, whatever

I Want ( Read more... )

this entry is for Tara, ive been thinkin and i know i dont talk much, the only thing i can suggest is to ask me questions, thats it. im sorry things r getting difficult.........