It is weird to think thoughts like this.. however, it has come to a quick realization to me that I don't exist in so many peoples lives anymore. Or I am only there for when they need me. I am tired of it. I miss having people to talk to.. I miss having people to do things with. Now I have maybe 2 people. Hell I don't even have my sisters. One is ( Read more... )

I wish I could just be happy............ :o/ forget what it feels like to TRULY be happy..

What do you do when you want answers to the questions you can't ask?

I wonder if you ever think of me? I wonder if you even remember me... its been so long. Looking back made me miss you, made me wonder why I was second best...

In the past x amount of years, that I have had this thing. I have come to realize I have changed so much over the time. I've learned from my past and am looking toward my future. I dont want to harp on the useless shit. I don't want to worry about what the next move will be. I learned I stayed in a relationship much longer than I should have only ( Read more... )

so i have had a lot on my mind. for a while now. just nowhere to actually write it. i feel like i have lost a lot. and gained very little. the people i care about don't seem to want to have much to do with me. i would do anything for them but i never hear from them. my life is basically work and come home to do nothing. i feel like i lost 3 of the ( Read more... )

Rest In Peace Princess. You will be missed more than anything on earth. I love you baby.

With in a few days it will be christmas. where has this year gone? im missing so much this year. i hate it with a passion. i hate how it feels like i am losing my friends. i hate how so much time has gone by and i never talk nor see anyone and i know they all see each other. its just that no one calls me. after the holiday i guess im looking for ( Read more... )

So.. I seem to have an amzing boyfriend. I seem to hate myself quite a bit though. I can't believe that as of tomorrow. it will be november. The year is flying by so fast. I can't believe it. I wish I could stop thinking. I wish i Could get some of these thoughts out of my mind.

this is an awkward week.