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Im Back!!!
It took a long time, but I finally mde it back into my LJ. So.......I missed this place. A lot. Expect updates and random ramblings and musings. -
pleASE BELIEVE ME........
IF YOU HAVE BEEN READING MY JOURNAL, THEN YOU KNOW....... i am as sane as they come. I am asking for help. Real help. Something is tormenting mr, and not just my own fears........I am way different than I ever was. And if something happens..........I WANT TO LIVE. MORE THAN ANYTHING. Pray, Please. I am tough. I will survive. -
I will hold on, and I am NOT crazy.
“Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage.”
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Please forgive
I am reaching for help. Satan doesn't want me to. Please help me. -
Time passages....
I fond myself in a new house, taking care of people who need taking care of. My best friend died of cancer. I am now in her home taking care of her family. but my daughter and granddaughter are here......they need me. I need me. Donna's family needs me. It surprises me hoe no one ever contacts us to see how we are ort what we may need. Human ( Read more... ) -
Happy Birthday, Jas!
My granddaughter is 7 years old today. I am grateful she is here. I now have two grandchildren, both girls, and I couldn't love them more. My relationship with Jas is much closer, simply because I helped raise her. But I love Langston just as much ( Read more... ) -
History repeats, sort of
The detectives just picked up my daughter so she could give her statement. Apparently "Jay" is being held on half a million dollar bond. He has a key to my back door. He got it some time ago, and there is no telling who has it now, if he even remembers what it's for. But I've been trained by the best ( Read more... ) -
I feel like Ophelia
Not in the sense that I want to die.......quite the opposite. But I am tormented by decisions, and secrets, and half-truths by family and friends ( Read more... ) -
Beginning Again
I realize there a great lengths of time when I don't journal here. I DO keep written journals of those times when I am unable to post, I am just not going to rewrite it all for here ( Read more... ) -
what a long, strange trip
12 overdoses since I last posted. More than 3 months in hospital and group home. My granddaughter and daughter moved to Texas the week of my birthday in December, before Christmas, and didn't even tell me about it beforehand. I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 years because he turned out to be an ASS, which is no surprise to me anymore. I cut myself ( Read more... )