you know yesterday andrew called me but the only reason he did is because i need to pay him back ... it would be a little nicer for him to not make it look that way... ah fuck it .. life won't last too much longer ... anyway i will movin out of state soon .. i need to get away from the lies and drama ... i know the people that say they really like ( Read more... )

i'm finally over my ex ... sweetness ... i mean i will never stop loving him but i can forget he for most of my life now .. rar ... i am happy right now but i gotta go to the mall ... i am meeting a friend up there fun fun .. bubye now... oh and i'm still mad at tay and mikey

i'm in a better mood now but i have to go to class .. i will write later ... i met someone .. His name is Shane.

well i just found out that some of my friends really aren't my friends so .. funfun ... i don't know which ones yet but i have a clue ... so if your really my friend you might wanna talk to me.. and soon at that ..

now that i have read all of my friends enetries i feel like sitting in a corner and never talking to anyone ever again .. all i have ever wanted is to be happy i will just find one more job and not think about anything ... 2 jobs and school till december .. that should work for a little bit ... i really wanna cry but it won't come out any more i ( Read more... )

i really don't feel good and i really wanna get so fucked up that i remember who or what i am. I wish i could have a life once more ... but what the hell .. i met a nice guy but i think all he wants is a peice of ass which he ain't getting and the sad part is i haven't been with anyone since andrew and i really want to be with someone ... Maybe ( Read more... )

My friends aren't really friends at least that is what it feels like ... everytime they call me it is normally them having me get them something ... when can i get something like maybe an hour to just sit and talk about life .. and guys .. how come everytime i meet someone the fu** me over ... i can't even trust anyone .. when i truly need someone ( Read more... )

Hey i'm back .. i have been writing in opendiary instead ... but alot has happened since the last time i wrote in here .. i am now pregnant about alittle over a month along ....two of my friends died in a car accident .... andrew my ex broke up with me after a 7 month relationship ... i graduate in december and i am seeing a guy named mike who is ( Read more... )

you know sometimes life feels like it stops and everything in it just continues .... I feel so dead that i feel like nothing matters anymore ... i have a few friends left and i might be pregant ... i'm screwed .. so why not accept my fate?... i would but i am so close to the edge... god it feels good to not care if you die or live ... i'm gonna get ( Read more... )