I've been ignored for longer than you've been interested.

There's something that makes me feel that life is worth living. Atmospheres. Doesn't matter if good or bad things are happening. If I feel an atmosphere, like the way you feel when a particular song or type of music is "coloring" a time period for you, is actively happening... That time is worth living. I don't know why. I've felt the deepest, ( Read more... )

For a long, long time I've been disconnecting from humanity. I love being connected to people. I love the sense of belonging and I love when people feel close enough to you to where they think they can tell you what to do. I enjoy being liked, wanted and even needed. About half a lifetime ago, though, I decided that this was the reason for most of ( Read more... )

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As long as I don't realize I'm dead, I think I'll live.

Any minute now, 1,000,000 pounds of C-4 is going to come screaming down this highway in an armored truck. It's directly on a deadly course towards The Chocolate Enema, the hottest fucking organic, vegan, 100% natural, uncut, grass fed fucking DESIGNER SHOE SHOWROOM in the Tri-County area. My alter ego, Tits McFee, will be the only one who can stop ( Read more... )

Change, progress and self improvement have been major attention/focus usurpers after I turned 15. Unfortunately, I've escaped some realities of life through chemical means when I should have been asking more questions. I still have pieces of who I was in high school but I did a massive amount of cognitive therapy on myself after I graduated. I ( Read more... )

I changed my name to Jackson Malachi Davenport Classic.

Went to an Electric Six show last night. Got hit on by a chick. Sweeeeeet

                I feel better than I have in a long time. I was really worried about everything for about a year and a half. So much so that I consistently got 4, or less, hours of sleep a night and was absolutely not tired the entire time I was awake. The only time I went to sleep was when I felt like I could. I was worried about my car breaking ( Read more... )