That way I wouldnt have to have any goddam stupid useless conversations with anybody. (Apathy cont.)

[bluecatears]

Mad posted something interesting in my previous post about apathy. The post was called, "I thought what I'd do was, I'd pretend I was one of those deaf-mutes." Its the first half of the quote that this post's subject finishes.

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waxing philosophical

[senea]

Here are a few of my thoughts.

Life would be easier if we went through it not caring. It would not, however, be better. I think that if you love someone, you shouldn't do it in a half-assed way. Would you want to be loved like that? I don't think so. It's cheesy, and will probably sound a bit empty this close to a break-up, but I believe the assertion that you have to love like you won't get hurt. This being said, it is important to realize if you need to move on, even so far as how you need to move on. It's not a fast process, or at least one shouldn't expect it to be if you have been deep in a relationship for awhile. But we heal, and life does go on. Strangely, sometimes it even gets better.

I'm certainly no sage, but I have had my heart broken, I have known love, and I have known the feeling of numbness that you seem to be talking about. At this sort of time, I find that some form of distraction (usually involving spending time with friends you may have lost touch with) is key. You'll find your footing, I am certain of that.

[carad_elmare]

Hrmm, the only philosophizing I've bene doing of late has been related to science (actually really cool), but here's my unsolicited $.02 (keep the change ^^).

There are times when it's important to feel and times when it's good to shield your heart a little.

I admit that I tend to wear my heart on my sleave, but having a reputation of being transparent makes it that much easier to hide when you really are feeling down.

I know after the whole fiasco at my church now four years ago I had to be numb to cope with it. Only after the wound was no longer fresh could I allow myself to be angry with what happened. I'm still mad about it, but I'm trying to leach the bitterness out of my heart. Who knows, I might even set foot in a church again other than for weddings, funerals, Easter, or Christmas ^^

But it's okay to be numb. You'll come out of it when the time is right.

[bluecatears]

Actually, I did know what happened during that argument. I used the text Mad had given me to discuss something that was on my mind. Also, why the fuck are you reading my blog? Go away.

You also mentioned that I said I insisted you trusted me, which is bs. The 2 reasons I don’t like you are because I know you don't trust anyone, and because you are a pretentious brat who posts in other peoples blogs even though you know they only thing that will come out of it is causing an upset.

If you have a problem with what I say in my blog, don't read it.

[triaelf9]

I know that hurting sucks, but not feeling anything is even worse. When Gabe got back with Ali and didn't tell me (i DID find out) I turned off my emotions. I didn't feel anything. It was nice b/c I couldn't cry, but I also couldn't laugh. And I wither without laughter. I understand not putting everything into a relationship, and that can be ok in the beginning. But it is unfair if one person goes all in and one doesn't. It usually ends with one person crying (again, speaking from experience). It may hurt, but I believe that you have to go all in if you want something out of it. If it doesn't work out, that's life, but if it does work out...then you have something wonderful.
I know the hurt. I know about having to choose what to care about. I guess it's different for everyone.