well....this is still around??  I guess we will see what I can spew out.  Not right now, though.  It's bedtime.

 I've had a lot of self realization during the past three days.  Jeff went to california to tend to his divorce matters.  It made me realize that I am not very strong.  Jeff called me crying...he was taking his son home.  Instead of just being supportive and loving.  I got on the defensive.  I started talking about how he needs to rethink his ( Read more... )

 The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight ( Read more... )

 I'm stuck ( Read more... )

 I started taking the Zoloft that got prescribed to me about three months ago, yesterday.  I have to say...in all honesty...it's a fucking wonder drug.  I really just don't give a fuck.  I mean I am happy...yes...but things that would normally set me off...I just don't care.  It's like flipping the bird to anything that used to piss me off...hurt ( Read more... )

I don't know if I'm just incapable of being normal or if I'm just doomed.  I try so hard to not be too giving...to not push myself away too much.  That nice happy medium of contentment.  Does that happen?  Oh hell no.  I give so much and so deeply and I don't expect much...I just want affection.  I want a hand to hold...a kiss on the cheek.  But I ( Read more... )

Do you know how good it feels to know that someone is moving 1300 miles just to be with you? It's the most amazing feeling ever. I finally feel worth it....

Ok...so for the past three weeks I have been struggling with this whole diet and healthy living business...and it's finally paying off.  I have lost 7-8 pounds!  Awesome!  I'm soo stoked you have no idea.  I was so frustrated because, well, I'm impatient and if I don't see results right away I get discouraged.  Sooo now I'm finally getting results ( Read more... )

Wooo!! I found my vertical horizon CD from Jr high and it's rocking my balls. I just thought I would let all of you know. Because I'm excited.

Ok...the IT guy blocked myspace and I'm bored.  Anyone wanna e-mail me...go for it.  courtneyr@accortechnology.com  we can chat....werd.....