iv had a eventful past few days & its been forever it seems since iv updated. iv been with family a lot so its been hard to just not eat... i hate my life so much right now. i lost my best friend:( i feel so alone... & im a fatass but right now i really want chocolate chip pancakes...:( idk why im such a fatass.

lonely.sick.depressed...

worst head ache:( x boyfriend is back from the army:( & he is trying to get back with me but he is only here for a week.. what do i do? he wants to be with me but i know its just temporary until he leaves. what should i do.. iv been so lonely & it was nice tonight having him to hug & hold on to:( i miss someone like that.. ugh. i miss a boyfriend ( Read more... )

:) woke up & went to get coffee with my friend then went to go see charlie st cloud at 10AM:) best but sadest movie iv seen in awhilee ( Read more... )

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starting a 48 hour fast today:)

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heyy. so last night i went out & drank with my friends because i NEEDED a day out from all that cheer stuff. 21 hrs in 3 days is WAY to much. i ate sun chips a chewy bar & cookies last night though right before i went to bed:(:( i woke up & im 132 though? so unexpectedddd! i am so tired right now & want to eat but i know i can't.

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iv been crying for hours ( Read more... )

i justt posted but i have to write this in here just encase something awful happens.. i have G2 downstairs that i got the other day & i really wanna drink it but i know the second i taste how good it tastes ill want to eat my whole house... AH. i hate just tsitting at my house thinking about food. its gnawing at me little by little.

i had cheerleading again today for 7 hours & i weighed myself today & im 133.5... awful:(

i got home around 5 & my whole family was gone they left a note so its easy not to eat but so hard not to at the same time. i took a bath to take my mind off things.. & now im laying in bed & its 8 but i really could break any second & go binge...:( blaaaah.

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my stomach is growling sooo much right now its so hard not to eat.. i need some motivation!! i have a 7 hour a day cheerleading camp the rest of the week. i had it today & i ate a apple sause (100 cal. & a special k bar 90 cal ( Read more... )