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Being at my boyfriends house makes dieting so hard. He at least encourages me to workout but then I feel like he knows I've gotten fat. I've gained so much weight and have no will power to stick to anything. I will go without eating until dinner and I feel like that's killing me but I'm afraid to eat anything that will make me feel bloated. Then ( Read more... )

Already off my schedule. REGROUPING! Starting this week I began a program called BBG. It is a workout and dietary program. It schedules workouts for me and I am trying to eat as little as possible. I like the app because it holds me accountable for my exercise, which is where I fall short ( Read more... )

Weighing in at 175, I'm back and at my highest weight. This is insane. How did I go from being 125 to 175. I FEEL HORRIBLE ABOU MYSELF ( Read more... )

Tomorrow I move into my new apartment and I am very excited to be eating what I want and how little I want. There is also a gym attached to the complex! I am very excited but freaking out about living on my own ( Read more... )

I havent posted in here in a long time but I am desperate. Every time I feel hopeless and I dont have anyone to talk to about feeling so depressed and fat I always come here ( Read more... )

Feeling the light of embracing the memories for many aspects of my life. Laying in my bed with the windows open gives me a bittersweet feeling to my life. Hearing the train in the background. Knowing I'm home, but only for a few more weeks until I move back to college. Visiting past moments in my life where I would stay up all night on Live Journal ( Read more... )

Recently I have had a lot on my mind. So many thoughts about being a senior in college, starting a new chapter next year, losing friends, feeling helpless. It's one friend after another that I feel are losing interest in being my friend. I used to have a huge group of friends that would hang out all the time; we were inseperatable. Now I have lost ( Read more... )

Today I did great.... until 4pm came and I was starving :( I got back from the gym and started with a handful of almonds and a banana... then it went all down hill :/ I hate myself ( Read more... )

Soo I have been off and on this whole year.. In March I went on Spring Break in Panama City Beach and left with tramatic 2nd degree chemical burns all over my body from the hot tub! It took me a good month and a half to start walking normal again and to get back into the gym. After I was back to normal I realized I gave up on my body... :( I slowly ( Read more... )