It is SO FUCKING IRRITATING that i want to major in a life science, a social science, anddddd a romance language. Like what the fuck is wrong with me for wanting to do that and why can't i just pick one thing to likeeeeeeeeeee. As of right now i'm majoring in biology/french but i might want to major in economics again, after all of this. But ( Read more... )

EDIT: I also find it IRONIC (amusing, again) that after like millions of dollars in damage/driving thousands of people out of their homes/ruining of beirut/other cities, everything is pretty much the same as it was before. Let's ignore the fact that no side actually won and just enjoy the fact that NOTHING CHANGED. Not killing hundreds of people/ ( Read more... )

I seriously find it... i don't know how to phrase "amusing" without it sounding like i think hundreds of deaths and war is amusing but i don't know what other word to use...that both sides claim victory. Sorry, israel, you did not "eliminate the state within a state" as you claim. Sorry, Hezbollah, you did not win a "strategic, historic victory" ( Read more... )

i haven't written anything in a while but there is nothing going on in my life that seems worth writing about/etc. Summer happens, i guess. It's definitely not my favorite time of the year (well it used to be but now it is just not fun ( Read more... )

All of this Israeli/Lebanon stuff just makes me want to give up on humanity and just blah. I don't know how to articulate exactly what I want to say but like blah. I'm sure there are people that think this is the end of the world (because with any conflict/war/middle eastern stuff, there are always some people that think it's the end of the world ( Read more... )

There is not enough timeee in a day. I want to read/work/review french/read more/learn italian/read news magazines (foreign policy is now on my "read" list along with time (when it doesn't have shitty articles about stupid shit), the economist (am i economically conservative?), foreign affairs, andddd sometimes newsweek. but yeah. so i wish ( Read more... )

I have been searching cancer shit for days on wikipedia.org to self-diagnose my symptoms and i think i have multiple "Ewing sarcomas" in my arm/legs/pelvis/ribs/spread to lung. aka a rare bone cancer that is most prominent in adolescent/late teenage males. the survival rate for metastasized ewing's sarcomas is less than 30% so whatever. I am ( Read more... )

My past like week has been from the perspective of me dying and it has just been ahh sucky. I NEED to go to the doctor tomorrow and make sure i do(don't) have cancer because now i've convinced myself that it has spread throughout my abdomen and into my lungs and into my left arm (bone cancer) because my pinky and ring finger of my left hand have ( Read more... )

ahh this summer sucks hard . possibly one of the worst summers ever? i don't know, my summers typically suck. i sincerely hope i do not have cancer (stomach, lung, bone, etc.; pick one).

i don't enjoy my job after day 1. we'll see.

so it's just starting to hit me that i am never going to see her againn. WHAT THE HELL. with whom am i going to watch the five o'clock news every day now? with whom am i going to laugh at all the fat nurses who sit at the nurses station all day and eat ( Read more... )