It's been years since I posted and it seems like no one else is on here anymore either.Well,I'm married now,I have a child, a big house. All in all I'm pretty happy.

Why does stupid fucked up shit happen to me?My mom's fucking cracked out boyfriend stole my digital camra,and that means he fucking pawned it.I just fucking got that for Christmas,haven't even fucking had it for a fucking week and he fucking stole it and pawned it.I can't fucking wait until Chris gets out of jail so I can get the fuck out of here. ( Read more... )

I had this dream,it was really crazy,it was sort of bad.In the end it was good though.It started out with me and Chris driving in my car somewhere,we ended up at a river.On the way there we saw Cindy and her daughter in a police car.Chris and I hide the car,I don't think either of us had a license,and get out at a river.We cross it,I think of Cindy ( Read more... )

Thoughts 6              July 13,2006

My body's aching
I can't sleep
My heart is breaking
My heart pounds every time I hear the phone
But it's not you
I'm still alone
I don't know what to do
I've been praying
And trying to keep my faith
But it's getting harder everyday
What I would do to hear your voice
You'd be surprised
I just want to know you're ok
And that ( Read more... )

Untitled

I wish that I could show you
How much you really mean to me
I wish that I could love you
The way that you deserve to be
But so many people are holding me back
I gotta act,just to keep them off of my back
Now I got watch my back and guard myself
No one's here to help me
They're only pushing hader on my chest
And I can't breathe
Without you here by my ( Read more... )

Run Away

I just want to run away
From everything
And never look back again
I just want to get away
From everything
That's caused me so much pain.
Sometimes,I want to die
But then I can see your face
You start to cry
I'm not alright
I know you can see my pain

Chorus 2x

One day,I'll run away
And we can stay
In some fairytale place
One day,I'll run away
And we can ( Read more... )

Day 1:

I wake up feeling unrefreshed and like total shit.I never really slept last night,only for about 3 hours.I awoke with my head pounding much like a migrane and my jaw and stomach hurting.I don't like this medication.I do not think it's for me.

~Staci Mercado~

Well,yesterday I went to a psychiatrist,my mom put my on anti-depressants/anxiety medication.The guy diagnosed me with generalized anxiety and severe paranoia.Great...medication...Well,this morning I wake up and my jaw hurts,as well as my stomach,and I feel as though I have a migrane or a hangover from hell....And it didn't even help me sleep.As I ( Read more... )

Let's Show Them

What if I died?
Would you cry?
Would you wipe your eyes?
Would I cross you mind?
Would you try to see?
Or try to be with me?
I know,there's a few stuggles,
But I promise you
That our love's strength will double.
If you just stick with me.
This is just a test,
For everyone to see.
So ,come on, let's try our best.
Let's show them who we really are.
( Read more... )

Well,Chris is staying the night,he's sleeping in my bed,since he doesn't ever get to do that.I'm being nice and letting him sleep in my bed,I'm gonna sleep on the couch.Fun fun fun....But well,it's a small sacrifice to make someone else I care about happy.He's asleep right now even.I'll probably have to take some sort of sleeping pills just to get ( Read more... )