and i feel like this is the last place anyone might care to look.

f the chronicle.

that's all.

i really, really hate the fact that i will have to look back on these last few months as a period of frustration and disappointment, a time of little growth and (it feels like) little to show for it all ( Read more... )

i worry, i weigh three times my body ( Read more... )

... aaand that will be the last time i call kirby during a project-related panic attack. as livejournal is my witness, i will not, not, not do that again.

and so we'll try again tomorrow. yes, still kicking myself (to sleep, tonight).

i am so, so over my head and underwater with this project i'm working on.

i've been avoiding the rest of it for a couple weeks now, finishing up another project and using a couple busy weekends as excuses. but now i have to work on it, and i have to finish it. and it's hanging over my head, and i'm terrified, and now that i've started working on ( Read more... )

about a year, or so? ago? i was over at kirby's house and, after finally getting fed up with people who kept asking us how long we'd been together, was prompted to do some digging around to actually find out how long it had really been. thank goodness for livejournal (even though i didn't write about it at all, he actually did). we decided to ( Read more... )

so what's up with this?

kirby bought a nikon d40 last week, which *hopefully* will be mine in a hefty handful of months when he upgrades the body as he is planning to do. in the meantime i'm in the process of getting his old d70 fixed, so i think we're going to be having a lot of camera fun soon. i miss taking pictures so much, and i realized ( Read more... )

and doing really well. i'm a pretty happy girl, i think.

i just stopped in the middle of a row on kirby's christmas scarf (that no, i haven't finished yet) and in the middle of an episode of weeds (yay netflix streaming -- but seriously, could this show be any more difficult to watch sometimes?) to seriously consider taking the final step in ( Read more... )

it occurred to me a few days ago that the spark to share my thoughts on these virtual pages has been absent for quite some time. no real explanation is in the works, but i will say my emotional landscapes have been quite dull for quite some time. i'm not sure why, but i'm very sure how ( Read more... )

not those kind, but these kind. the kind that think i'm an idiot (also, the kind that beg for a response ( Read more... )