**So, as June comes I am becoming more and more nervous. My lease here at my apartment in the city ends and I will be moving out, hopefully back to my home realm in Greece. Things will be changing, though. I will not be moving in anywhere with Allison, yet I will not be moving back home with my parents. I will (with any luck) be moving into an ( Read more... )

**I wonder if I've made the right decisions in life. I wonder if I've kept the right relationships and let go of the bad ones, or if I've slipped somewhere along the way. Sometimes I almost wish I could see some people just one more time and make that ultimate decision, and not let them have a say in the matter. I still debate with myself as to ( Read more... )

**Pretty sure I'm done living through this chapter of my life. I just want to sleep and wake up to something better. On Saturday, January 2nd I had to put Clyde to sleep, I don't think I've ever been so torn in my whole life. He was so sick though, SO sick. I took him to the vet because I could tell he wasn't feeling well and the vet found a ( Read more... )

**Welp. It's Christmas. For some reason I don't feel the excitement I used to. It's not like I'm growing too old for this, I just feel terribly alone. Clyde took his meds really well last night and ate 2 bowls of food so that made me super happy, but now this morning he's just laying in his doggy bed not really responding to me. Normally at ( Read more... )

**not in the sense of savior, though. More in the sense of.... to be this miserable and have this much bad luck must be caused by something out there that hates me with a passion. I used to believe in my grandma being an Angel. When I needed help I would make a silent prayer to her to get me through whatever it was. By now, I can honestly say ( Read more... )

**so last night Allison's boyfriend Shawn took a shower once to prepare to cut his own hair.  Then after doing so the bro takes yet ANOTHER shower in order to wash up and the process took what seemed like a lifetime.  Later on I'm in my bedroom on facebook and I hear the bathtub running AGAIN so I'm like wtf is this kid doing ( Read more... )

**so last night i got my proof - proof that i shouldn't eat and drink alcohol before bed, and proof that i think i still hate my dad. i had me a couple rum and cokes and then before bed i ate a cup of Lipton soup and some pizza. ohhhh man. i had the most realistic dream about my dad dying. in my dream i think he died in a fire and i actually ( Read more... )

**So, as I continue my journey through college and find my way, I also find myself taking a Yoga class at MCC. Why? Because with tuition reimbursement and the need for a higher GPA....what's not to love, right? Even in my first class I was disappointed when my professor told us the class didn't go all the way until 21:30. Well. Things have ( Read more... )

**sooo last week I had a little bit too much adult juice after kickball and got pretty sick. It was so bad it lasted all the following day and I was about as miserable as miserable gets. Ever since then I went a few days without a voice and I've been coughing my lungs out and I'm just about at the point where I'm ready to rip my lungs out and buy ( Read more... )

**so I've come to realize what my problem is. Patrick and I have been disputing a little this past week because he's supposed to be moving in and he just hasn't been making decisions up to my par of pace. I have a million other things on my mind so it feels as though his unwillingness to cooperate has made everything all the more difficult on me ( Read more... )