Sadomasochistic

[bluereflection]

After midnight. Said id be asleep by 11. Drained eyes, sore muscles & a grumbling stomach. Silent house & a hot summer night. Alot of writing/poetry inspiration came to me while on the treadmill. once i got off, words suddenly filled pages & pages of my notebook. ive really meaning to type of some sort of poetry contemplation, just for the sake of

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[dreamofdarkness]

its good youre trying to vent everything in the journal. hopefully it will help. the purging and cutting is scary:( i cut for about 3 years i guess, i dont know exactly how long i did it for it just seems like forever. ive stopped for over 2 now, its so hard and so scary sometimes. its good you have a doctor you can go to. how recieving are your parents? dont give up. youll be ok eventually. do you mind if i put you on my friends page? -katie ...and dont hate yourself, you can fix the car, imagine if it had been a horrible accident how awful that wouldve been. youre lucky its just the car that needs to be fixed.

[bluereflection]

Katie, i just left a comment in your LJ a little while ago, but thanks for stopping by. i have stopped cutting now for a few months; a few days ago was sort of an isolated incidence i suppose. i dont currently have a doctor/therapist except my psychatrist whom i only see 2x a year although a little more frequent now that i am withdrawing from my meds. i wanted to call my therapist the other night but never did. i havent spoken to her in over a year now ( i was supposed to keep in touch with her when i went away to college byt never did & now regret it). im glad that you have stopped cutting but im sorry you are still dealing with an eating disorder. sure, you can add me to your friends, ill do the same for you! take care!!

allison

[weepingwillowed]

hmmm, i'm glad you stopped by my lj... i like this low key atmosphere that lj seems to carry along with it. it's very different from all the other diary//journal sites. i am, just as you are, fairly new to this place, so it's nice to know that someone else is out there.

i love hearing about other people who love the virgin suicides as much as i do... it means a lot to me. *tips head and thinks* and you're right: too much self-realization is a bad thing.

[weepingwillowed]

good hearing from you again... ahhh, so you love fiona too? my god, i've loved her for so long... i feel like i AM her or i know her like a sister because of her two albums. she's just amazing. *grin* you're right: her third album is supposed to be coming out... it was supposed to more than a year ago, but there have been some problems. the next date is set for june 22nd, so cross your fingers. apparently, sony doesn't think that her record will sell, so they're refusing to put it out. *taps fingers impatiently* that just gets me pissed off. i know you must be too. don't worry, she'll eventually do what she always does: amaze us with her beauty.

soon, darling, soon... *sigh*

[weepingwillowed]

oh, the guy i went to see in the hospital... was actually someone i just met. he's a friend of my sister's, which makes my friend too. they both just graduation from high school, and he hurt himself at this big get together called _project graduation_. he was doing this one game that involved a bungee strap tied to him, and he got flung back the wrong way... one of his knee'e ligaments was pretty much... pulled apart. o_O so sad...