well, last night dad suggested we go out to dinner (we went to Red Lobster lol) so we did around 8:30...well, thinking we waited til 8:30 it wouldnt be crowded, but it was sooo packed. i live in a sickenly congested area and i cannot take it any longer ( Read more... )

***Removing poem because i think i am submitting revised version so i thinky baddd idea having on internet***

This makes me smile ( Read more... )

...someone else to catch this drift...

10.15 on a saturday night & im sitting here in my pajamas alone. My sixteen year old brother has about 10 friends including his girlfriend & they are all in the backyard in a tent getting drunk while oblivious parents are out to dinner. i couldnt name 10 friends if my life depended on it.
i guess when its ( Read more... )

After midnight. Said id be asleep by 11. Drained eyes, sore muscles & a grumbling stomach. Silent house & a hot summer night. Alot of writing/poetry inspiration came to me while on the treadmill. once i got off, words suddenly filled pages & pages of my notebook. ive really meaning to type of some sort of poetry contemplation, just for the sake of ( Read more... )

i cut. 5 times on my left upper thigh. havent cut in a few months. i dont know what im doing. i want to cry but cant. every time today the tears have started coming i just cut again. felt so good, pressing the razor to my pale skin, dragging across a crimson river. slices of raspberry porcelain so carefully yet carelessly one after the other ( Read more... )

i dont even know what to say right now. today has just been a bad, bad day. from the moment i woke up & ended up binging on icecream & then purging it in the shower i knew things were shitty. hadnt purged in a couple weeks now. then as im getting into the shower just to purge as i see a sign in the bathroom saying dont use this toliet that mom left ( Read more... )