I know that most of my friends don't really participate in LJ anymore... and I will be honest, I don't plan to make a habit of it ( Read more... )

Well... that's what I am. I was mandated by my new psychiatrist to take a month off of work. Not too thrilled about it, but at the same time, I am ready for a little break. I am so stressed out. I haven't slept in days. I can't eat because my stomach is too nervous. I think I am having a mental breakdown.

So things have been a roller coaster for me lately. I can't control my moods, all I want to do is drink... even though I don't. But I want to really bad. I think work is really getting to me. I think when resident B.S. leaves, I will be better. She makes me so nervous. I am single and have been for too long. I know, I know,... I am always ( Read more... )

she hangs by the light of the moon, careful and strangely. She has no breasts here. She has no canals, no vessels, no organs. she hangs by the light of the moon. she is woman of the year and nobody knows it. poetic license makes her ugly

My whole life feels like it is behind a screen of smoke.
Drifting through my quest for meaning
I dream of better luck
I dream of thespians and clowns
trying to cheer up.
I feel like I am on a mechanical bull
drawing unwanted attention.
all to grab someone's attention.

How You Life Your Life
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I know it has been a long time since i have updated my journal. I just haven't had the motivation, I guess. I drove a friend down to Bend this past weekend and broke down there. I took a greyhoung bus back to town. I guess it was a stupid decision to drive my piece of shit car to Bend, but I wanted to help pout my friend. I ended up getting my ( Read more... )

Well, it has been a reallllly long time since I updated this thing. A lot has been going on for me lately with work and school. I keep sleeping through my alarm clock and missing class. This is NOT good. I am so paranoid about it now that I have been staying up all night and getting no sleep just to ensure that I am there on time. My moods ( Read more... )

So things have been okay. I had a hellish night at work. I am going to keep this short since I am tired. I am doing alright and I haven't been too depressed. Just a lot of anxiety. Oh and I totaled my car. Fun.

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