I realized I changed. Im not who I used to be anymore. I went to pick my little brother up to put him in bed cuz he fell asleep in my room. And when I picked him up he didnt know who I was. I kept telling him over and over I wasnt who he thought I was that I was me. And he started crying he was so scared he ran outta the room and into the liveing ( Read more... )

I donno anymore. Im losing everything I hold close to me. I dont feel anymore. I guess thats good cuz then I cant get hurt. I would really like to say I love someone, but lately it doesnt feel that way. Maybe its because they say they love me too but I dont believe them. I donno. I really dont. I wish someone could just tell me what to do, what to ( Read more... )

Im so fucking sick of everyones shit its driving me crazy. I shoulda stayed in tucson. At least there I felt welcome and I was happy, and if I wasnt happy they made an effert to make me feel better. Here its the complete opisite. Its fuck you and die. I hate it here. I wanna leave. Im already sick of school and I havnet even started yet. My mother ( Read more... )

Im in tucson right now. Just chillin you know with my cousins and theyre friends. I feel left out last night. I dont know why, they were trying to talk to me after I left the room. But I didnt want to talk to them. Maybe I was being a big baby about it. But I hardly get to see Amber or Angela and I have so much I wanna talk to them about but I cant ( Read more... )