I cut and tryed killing myself again. I got really depressed and thinkin about my dad out of no where. I dont want to be alive if hes not, why cant I be with him again? I want nothing more then to be five years old sitting on my dads knee while hes driving. I want so badly to die but I dont have the balls it takes to kill myself. Today in 5th hour ( Read more... )

god im so fucking sick of everyones shit i wish theyd die, i wish theyd leave me alone. i cant take this anymore. im tired of pretending im fine im tired of smiling when im crying inside. i wish i could change and be someone else or die. dying would be better. i hate my life, i hate my family, i hate everything. i wish i had a gun, a bullet, and ( Read more... )

not like anyone even cares or nothin anymore. i dont know why i even bother anymore, im so fucking sick of everyones shit. your all fucking posers. i fucking hate you. i hate you all. youve all made my life fucking hell since i moved here. pay backs a bitch, yall aint gonna like it. just wait til i see you fuckers out side of fucking school ill ( Read more... )

Ive failed you all Im sorry. Im done, Im out I really cant take anymore. I have no will to go on, I haveno reason to survive. Its hard and its only getting harder, I dont think Im strong enough to go on, I dont think Ive ever been strong enough to live. I have no hope, I have nothing. Everything is gone. Im numb. Been hurtting myself just to see if ( Read more... )

I fucked you guys. Im sorry Ive been really stressed out lately. I didnt mean to snap on anyone the way that I did. My moms just been getting on my case about everything lately. Shes always yelling at me. Shes always up my ass about something. I cant do anything right, she tells me it all the time. I feel like just giving up and dying. Im going no ( Read more... )

You fucking homos youd think that sooner or later youd realize that Im fucked up in the mind. Who ever Ive hurt fuck you I dont care anymore. Im so fucking sick of everyones shit. Im sick of hearing how bad everyones life is when they have nothing to be conplaining about. Oh so what you got grounded for a fucking week for dealing drugs so fucking ( Read more... )

Hey fackers! Im hyper as hell. Probably cuz I got no sleep last night and just started back on me meds. Yeeah.. Dude guess who I saw today... Yeah Brandie, and Sam, and Sara, and Caleb, and Nate, and Justin, and Danniel, and mohawk mike. Yeah I know like these are the fuckers I hung out with before I had to go to dumb old Chartered School. Oh yeah ( Read more... )

Im sorry to everyone. I understand that in all my relationships and friendships I do more harm then good. And I truely am sorry. It hurts, it really does. I cant keep pushin it down pretendin all this shit doesnt exist. Im just tired of everyones shit. Yall are getting the best of me. Id love to say I havent been lying to you about fallin back into ( Read more... )

Dude... 3 days til in a public school again, its been so fucking long. How long do you think it'll be before I get the shit beat outta me or get kicked out(again). My little brother spent the night at my grandmas house you know what that means, we got to smoke our weed tonight. Very much so needed. Extreamly stressful past few days ( Read more... )

Crying seems like the only thing I can do right now. Im so fucking pissed off Im crying. I havent cryed in a fuckin long ass time. I still cant believe someone who I conidered a bestfriend could say something so fucking mean. I cant believe that someone who knows how close I got to my grandfather after my father died could say that. It shocked me. ( Read more... )