a lot of D words

Jan 20, 2005 21:23

i dont know what to say or how to describe how i feel right now. the word "deflated" and "damaged" somehow spring to mind first. could be the fatigue talking though, highly possible ( Read more... )

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model__airplane January 20 2005, 18:50:32 UTC
im sorry that you are going through this with your parents
its hard to see the people you love act in a bad manner to each other
but there stresses
i know that sometimes i am not the greatest person to matt
when i am under a lot of stress and it is unacceptable
and i say things in front of my son and it saddens me
cause when my parents were going through a divorce they yelled in front
of me when i was 5 and i can remember it so clearly

have you thought about taking your dad aside and saying i don't like the way you are treating mom.

i know what you mean about being a "model"
but all models aren't sometimes perfect..you know.
or go through rough spells
since you are living there i would talk to them seperatly
and speak of your concern...and it may do a lot of good!

i wish you luck

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bluestars January 20 2005, 20:28:57 UTC
part of me feels like a kid passing messages between the parents. its exhausting. i tell my dad allll the time that i think he is doing damage to her and our family by how he treats her. its a neverending conversation!

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model__airplane January 21 2005, 05:56:56 UTC
sorry to hear that....

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modern_doll January 20 2005, 20:47:32 UTC
I am really sorry. *hugs you, baby, and your aching family*

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bluestars January 21 2005, 07:47:27 UTC
thank you. i really could use some hugs.

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lucky13kels January 20 2005, 21:18:56 UTC
Im sorry to hear youre having a rough time... from what i read you seem like a really great person and i dont think youll have any problems being a wondeful mom and an awesome role model for you little baby!! Hope you feel better soon!

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bluestars January 21 2005, 07:49:15 UTC
i think everyone has doubts at this point in the "game" about their parenting abilities. i'd be worried if someone wasnt feeling some trepidation at 7 months along. i feel passionate about what i have though so im not really that worried.

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msqueen January 22 2005, 08:01:40 UTC
i just noticed im not listed on your friend's list when updating mine.
i hope im not missing anything.
i look forward to reading your journal.

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bluestars January 22 2005, 08:05:16 UTC
the only reason i did that is bcs your havnt updated in months and i was doing a periodic cleansing of the ol' friends list. i thought you didnt come on here anymore bcs of your lack of updating. ill add you back right away.

oh and like 99.9% of my entries are public

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msqueen January 22 2005, 08:15:21 UTC
yeah i didn't update for a month because i was working major overtime.
but im back.

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_emmylou_ January 24 2005, 08:20:50 UTC
Hello there...
I stumbled upon your journal and found that we have some things in common. It is unfortunate that the main one relates to anxiety, though!
I just wanted to let you know how much I admire you. You have such an amazing way of dealing with the difficulty of life while staying so strong and are filled with such compassion. I am not a Christian, but I hope that I can take some of the lessons that you have shared in your journal with me to use throughout my life. I think I am inspired!
Also, congratulations on the pregnancy! I am very excited for you, which feels a little silly being that I don't know you.

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bluestars January 24 2005, 08:46:52 UTC
glad you found some good things to relate to! thank you thank you

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