This is the fall-out. I can't stop it from happening. I saw it coming and it's just in due time that it all crumbles on top of me. I also realize that it might be me who started drilling and perpetuated a thorough break. In some sense, I'm sorry. But in others, I'm not. I don't like feeling not needed, or merely just abandoned ( Read more... )

There's this hurt I can't comprehend. It feels like I'm breaking.

there's a bluebird in my heart that ( Read more... )

We know what's unsaid and we keep pretending it doesn't exist.

I guess it just works out better that way.

I knew being at home will drive me nuts. I don't know what I feel, but I don't feel right. Teach me, teach me how to be sane. Teach me to bury my emotions in that void called apathy, in that unsearchable, ineffable carelessness. I suppose more reasonably it's just the tryst, the sense of hopelessness that I want to wrap up, smother under a pillow, ( Read more... )

This turnstile of psychological neuroses. One after another, they repeat themselves and I'd just like to go on the emotional escalator and be above it all. Alas, it is a rather large turnstile with many spokes and I guess I'd have to exhaust them before I take any other way out ( Read more... )

Java Hut, I offer you this: fuck you very much.

The wind contains a tinge of solitude tonight and the atmosphere is doused with a neverending uncertainty. Just to clarify, the weather is cloudy with a hint of solemn breeze. The stars are hiding whenever I'm in the back porch, as if it doesn't want my wishes any more. I have little to nothing to look forward to now--no aspirations, inspirations, ( Read more... )

Why do the most brilliant minds tend to be crazy? Or, is there a lot of crazy people who just happen to be brilliant?

Well, this is really good-bye to Northeastern. There were good times and there were bad. There were happy moments and they are sad to leave behind. I'm packing out my apartment and getting ready to move tomorrow. There will be a lot of people I will miss. There will be people I will stay in touch with. I'm checking out and I'm signing off ( Read more... )