Anyone here use tumblr? I may end up using tumblr more often than livejournal. I've almost abandoned this website completely, but I like to take a long gander at some people's journals who I enjoy.

I'm blasted from cocaine, suboxone, weed and alcohol. I'm being the DJ of this 6 people party. It feels great. Tonight's mood is something I'd like to capture for a lifetime. But grandiose states must eventually fade and you must adapt to the lazy personality you have always belonged to. Brannon is asking for a favor. I just want to feel the music ( Read more... )

Be wary of the
paradoxical, neglected sentience among the departed minds
Seek the route which makes accessible...an absolute truth
oxygen, carbon, hydrogen, calcium, nitrogen, phosphorus
The composition of life
The creation of awareness, drifting from your nature
live irresponsibly, expose the fear to danger
it will devour the inessential anxiousness
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I have been transformed. Trash Humpers was very inspirational and redefined my default mindset. I've drifted back to the person I was last year. Maybe only temporary, I'm trying to not focus on that. The movie spoke to me. It told me to stop giving a fuck about other people's opinions and the manipulative influence of other people. Just do what I ( Read more... )

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I feel so depressed yet fascinated with the entertainer known as "beetlejuice" with microcephaly. He was exploited, that's what is upsetting. I thought at first after typing into youtube microcephaly that he would be really lame but instead of thinking that, or feeling sympathy for him, I felt a lot of love for him. A LOT. More than I do for anyone ( Read more... )

Last night Brannon, as always, went to sleep early. I stayed up and listened to/watched URGH! A Music War and then I went and I lied down with him. I was awake for three hours before I could drift into sleep. While lying down Brannon started shaking/twitching and he would raise up an arm and his fingers would move around. It made me think of the ( Read more... )

“Transpersonal experiences occur only rarely in early sessions of psycholytic therapy; they become quite common in advanced sessions after the subject has worked through and integrated the material on the psychodynamic and perinatal levels. After the final experiences of ego death and rebirth, transpersonal elements dominate all subsequent LSD ( Read more... )

An idiot I know has a dose of genius in him. If you are ever feeling, down, depressed, suicidal, just take a good gander at this photo and listen to this song. Both, at once.


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The masterpiece of foam
A melancholy narrator under the waterline

Days live in dark seclusion
and don't hear the fish teeth grinding

They can't hear
the bad news of my disappeared poet-brothers

Water, gigantic water
curves in dizziness

Who will notice the body's double trembling
breathing like a thread, like an ant

Finally a first pair of wings born in ( Read more... )