the second semester of my first year of graduate school has concluded, which means that i've officially survived my first school year of graduate school. i don't recall ever going through anything as emotionally taxing, stressful, or exhausting as this past semester. of course, to some extent, i brought it upon myself, but that doesn't mean it ( Read more... )

how did i get into this school? i'm a little afraid of the answer because i don't think it was because of my grades and my abilities, but more because of who i worked for ( Read more... )

so i made it. i arrived at my parents' house in colorado this morning at 4, which would make it the equivalent of 6am boston time. basically i got here when i would have gotten up in the morning.... which sucked, but i'm here now ( Read more... )

these past few weeks have passed by so quickly it hardly even feels like it's the end of the year. through the craze of it all, i managed to join a lab, cut off most of my hair, finish the majority of my first semester of grad school, and have my flight back to my parents' house cancelled ( Read more... )

..explosion of yellow gingko leaves ( Read more... )

that's what the new professor said to me when i went to go talk to him about my research proposal for a grant. it's pretty much right. i feel like there's so much to do right now but so little time to do it that i'm just exhausted all the time. also, i feel like my body is trying to fight off a cold. either that or i'm constantly stressing/ ( Read more... )

tonight was the more established professor's open house. it was fun because i got to chat with my friends who were at my old school and catch up on the gossip/news, since they're more up on that stuff than i am. while i was chatting with one of my friends, the professor came up to me and started chatting about random stuff. it might have been ( Read more... )

revelation: i'm actually doing this! i'm a graduate student! whoa.

despite all my hesitations and complaints and insecurities, maybe this is what i want to do. i certainly hope it is, because i don't want to have to start this thing and not finish it.

woo chemistry.

i'm posting three times more than usual! don't expect this type of behavior to continue. it's not gonna be this way once school starts on monday ( Read more... )

the first year class makes me feel so much better about being here. the doubts have slowly been dissipating, but they're still there in the back of my mind. apparently, the department doesn't make any mistakes. people may decide that the program isn't for them, but they were evidently selected for a reason. maybe they won't kick me out then, ( Read more... )