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Frustration isn't the right word
Days like today make me regret moving to AZ. Days like today make we question why I followed. Aren't we supposed to be older and wiser? I don't even know how to put into words what I'm truly feeling. Frustration? Anger? Confusion?
Relationships aren't supposed to be easy. But this has been more than arduous. It's always one step forward and ( Read more... ) -
Lovin life
It's a gorgeous day and a gorgeous world we live in. It's absolutely incredible that we all came to be from something smaller than an atom. We grew exponentially and have now evolved to the point where we have the ability and study ourselves and our origins! Amaaazing. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else in time and space but here.
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<3
You give me premature ventricular contractions.
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Limbo
It's been raining like the sky is falling! So of course I don't want to get out of bed.
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Today
Today, I decided it was okay to touch the keyboard again. You know, the one I received on my birthday from him. Today, I ran into him as usual but for the first time, we verbalized a greeting. You know, rather than the usual awkward smile and a quick wave of the hand.
I think I'm okay.
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Bland
I live in a beige world.
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Lets begin Week 6
So I went on a date last Monday. Then today, I went on a second date. I don't know where it's going, but I still can't stop thinking about my ex. Unfair, eh? I have two weeks before the deadline. I know there's really no way to just set a date to cut off your heart. But I guess it gives me something to work on. I miss him in every way. It's ( Read more... ) -
Memories
I love how our minds work. It's amazing to me how I can re-live some of the most pivotal events in life in extraordinary detail. Of course, it's also in slow motion. For every second of it, you want to stop yourself or try to change any detail that would provide a more promising ending. It's a nightmare.
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May be it's the meds...
I might be delirious, but...
I've figured it out. I have trust issues that arise when I let someone in. I'm fine in a relationship so long as I'm still guarded and not so involved. Once I've let that person in and really start sharing a part of myself and all my vulnerabilities, I'm no longer comfortable.
I've been told I'm codependent. Be that ( Read more... ) -
CHF
Day 6:
Mute no more! I sound like a man, but that better than no voice at all. I can't sing still and that makes me :(
On a different note, I've been doing quite a bit of self-reflection. It doesn't help relieve the heartache but I guess I'm learning more about myself. It's a good thing that heartache can't become heart disease, else I would have ( Read more... )